xiaotaiyang

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2008-11-03T11:38:00.000-08:00

why is it so difficult.
(Above song lyrics written by Jay Chou.)

O_O

2008-09-17T07:27:00.000-07:00

1.What is more difficult:
To let go everything or forget what happened?
- To let go everything; because letting go of your loved ones(family&friends) is impossible, whereas forgetting what happened can be done through serious brain damage :D

2. Think of the last time you were angry. Why were you angry?
- Few weeks ago; hmm injustice and was puppeted

3. You will die in three minutes. Last call?
- no one =x. quietly slip away

4. If you could do anything OR wish anything, what would it be?
- I made three wishes with huimin at the Flyer already; so.. i guess thats what it means when you say "For everyone to be happy" i must not exist!

5. You can have one of the following two things: trust or love
- Trust is part of love. Trust.. because when you learn to trust, you'd love..

6. Would you or have you ever blackmailed someone?
- CRAZY, SO SCHEMING! NO.

7. Think of the last person you've met.
- *thinking in process*

8. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?
- Don't know.

9. Would u sleep with someone if you had the chance?
- *grins* sleep only.. also not do anything ahem~!

10. Are you old fashioned?
- *NODS*

11. What would be harder for you, to tell someone you love them or that you do not love them back?
- lol; both also very hard.

12. What would be the hardest thing for you to give up?
- my family & friends ):

13. Romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them?
- aiyo, do you really have to know?

14. Imagine. It is a dark night, you are alone, it is raining outside, you hear someone walking around outside your window. WHO do you wish was there with you?
- omg, anyone!!!!!! T_T

15. Would you give a homeless person a CPR?
- If he/she is going to die, I would! But I don't know how to do CPR ):

16. Words that you are holding onto your grandmother..
- I miss her a lot; and she forgot me before she passed on during CNY, i still remember that period, damn sad.

IF YOU HAVE 3 MONTHS TO LIVE:

17. Do you tell anyone or everyone you are going to die?
- no. who would...

18. What do you do with your remaining days?
- Live like normal; i mean, if you were in the same situation and was going to die, are you going to tell the whole world you are dying or prefer to keep it to yourself?!

19. Would you be afraid?
- No, death is another journey! (: We must be strong.

it feels like a overhanging cliff; collapsing and ..
sigh, i didn't say a word or do a thing to you tell me tell me what happened.
but i can see those hand signals and hear those non-verbal words
and i don't know whats wrong as well;
enlighten us all!

you're the reason that kept me strong.

o.o

2008-09-16T06:41:00.000-07:00

today is another horrible Tuesday; the switches for lights in my house were spoilt, and the house almost burned down- sparks were seen and smoke escaped in fumes from the switchbox. so I awoke my mother, and we went out of power. poor korkor without fans to sleep.. apparently I forgot it was Tuesday and we started school late so i walked to school.. and walked back home before dropping dead on my sofa and sleep in sweat; oh .. how i wish i can sleep forever. T-T.

went to school, almost late, so ran to school instead. and i keep running, running nowhere.

geography lessons are fun, whatever would i do without kashun around? she's so nice to tease to bully to ahem, ahem. really appreciate all the little things that she've done or say to help me walk through those times.. and now, without anyone

uh, after school went to causeway with besties Joyce & Xiu (: always fun and warm and eccentric with them around; we walked here and there, and courts actually had no ELECTRONICS for light ! ): went to pasamalam, the thing that i wanted to buy is already sold( dejected; sighs. ) . bought steam cakes for marmi, and then after awhile everyone started to get my disease of emo-ing.. ): then we all went home.

so the house was in darkness, the switch unrepaired. apparently papah already made some attempts to repair it but to no avail until late 8pm or so. thanks daddy, he's the best when comes to such electrical stuff. its always nice to have a man in the house for sure (:

asked guanchiap for help in phys since wenlin assured that he's of great help, but he was so reluctant that i decided not to in the end. =x

went online to do the titration graph stuff, scanner wasn't working but that's okay. Fax machine isn't working as well and everything just goes wrong...

anyway, parents wedding anniversary is coming :D. they have the same wedding anniversary of zoe tay and many other stars.. 22nd sept! sometimes, passion turns into some other form of .. love; which is really really nice, because you get to grow old together, see your children grow, and simple things like having dinner together is so.. blissful. anyway, i'm amazed how two people can work through things and overcome them for so long, it must have been very difficult to work out their differences at the start of the marriage and throughout the journey so.. yes, congratulations! :D still, i think can cut down on the spending part.. chalets resorts and food.. if save up more, maybe can go overseas for holiday! *glimpse of hope*.

so overall, today was a sad gloomy melancholic day.. but,
ming tian hui gen hao! ;D
on the other hand, its not so bad since my card got through and wasn't sent to outer space!
and for the first time in my entire life you praised me.!
through setbacks we learn to be strong;
sigh, only left a few months and then no more Chung Cheng already.. ):

x(

2008-09-12T08:51:00.000-07:00

serious bout of itchiness, probably atopic eczema; had previously been to two doctors
the first doctor prescribed a very high and strong dosage, that must have explained why i slept 9 hours and had vertigo. it should have removed the so-called "allergy" to eggs/prawns/scallops/milk/(chicken)/nuts in one day, but that stayed on for more than a week and it just got itchier!

went to the second doctor which exclaimed that the first doctor should have already cured me since the medicine was a strong one; so she gave a jab on my arm. and now i realized that many people likes poking other people's arms! (omg, haha!) she gave a less stronger medicine but still a high dosage spread out across ten days ): . now a swollen left arm with the itchiness not getting any better...

the second doctor was really very nice; "its very itchy right~~~~~~~" T_T
on a happier note, i get to learn about many different superstitions and fables by my parents; marmi said that there is probably a snake in my blood, and have to use a joss stick to find that snake and kill the head. daddy ask me to bathe in white rice and cuckoos. sadly, i think i don't believe in such stuff.. heh~

so here i am scratching and bleeding away! wenlin and melvyn tried to remind me not to scatch, and i had a difficult time not scratching~ how I wish I can slice my skin off, HAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHA T_T. so yes, sze yee yikai and wenlin (if i'm not wrong) will be going to have fun playing lanterns and candles and all that tomorrow night T.T; i'd be staring at the lonely moon, with Chang'er understanding my plight...

fuck, fucking itchy.

Torrid week

2008-09-10T05:00:00.000-07:00

Of course I remember, Jinxuan! Anyway, it would be a SUN(HAHA)day; shall we meet up, study, and do what we are supposed to do? (:

Time flies. Four years in chung cheng, four years and I'm surprised that when I look back, I can remember quite a lot about 1G(imagine what XY would exclaim when she sees this). Tammie spit all over Xiu Yi's table, (HAHA!), everyone with their toot-toot hairstyles... Ri Xin's funny expressions and insecurity about people looking at her in Mrt and people following her home, how we angered teachers and everything else that made up the class like SinRen's outspoken voice and straightforwardness, art lessons that I detested.. somehow, I get a little melancholic.

Today, we took a class photo in 4F with Mrs Jesse Tan! She's my favourite teacher, a little shorter than me(grins; but she still has great femininity). Anyway, she really must have loved teaching... but maybe I'd do the same if I was a teacher, skipping meals just to impart knowledge; ensuring others of a brighter future. Yep. feels so out of place.

And I'm proud of you to get a whooping 100 marks for English. I'm proud of you to get As, and Bs, and having Aims. Keep up the good work.. or work even harder for your other subjects as well. don't let your mummy, and us, down. (:
100 marks for English!!! I still can't get over it, 100 marks for English man!! How did you do that?! But congratulations !! :D

On a happier note, prom night is coming! On a sadder note, many people is not going. On a happier note, Wenlin Joyce Xiu Yi is going~ really have to give credits to those who organised it, it must have been time-consuming to work out the venue, get the budget, do proposals, go after teachers, type out papers and everything. Thank you for doing this for the sec 4 level and teachers!

Last but not least, results! I failed English and PHYSICS(T_T), and the other results were really extreme. Somehow, my goldfish memory can never consume more than 10kilobytes of information, ): crushed.. i have to work two hundred times harder than others just to merely scrape a pass. i'm doubtful that anyone would have the patience to teach me maths and science...

Somehow very exhausted, showing signs of vertico and slept for 9 hours almost every day this week; still can't remove the giddiness, it feels like i'm going to fall again

oh yes! well done to those who have improved, and congratulations to those who have made the mark :D. God(and all the highly majesties above) bless you~~~

start wondering if you ever wondered
they are waning; we start wandering
when autumn leaves fall, only the trees are to blame
but who sees the pain in their veins?
we stop the icy winter from coming; the wind was framed
sounds of cackling and cracking was faint
we call it a late winter; thats all natural
don't blame the weather but just the trees
let them stand there and do their thing;
don't move don't sway don't make a sound
the leaves will come back for another round
"get to me before the winter does"
so now have you ever wondered
who was late, who was never?
what a disappointment...

visited the flowers for the first (and last) time today. the sunflower already die liao ): left lavenders and so and so... still, thank you very much; i still think that there was no need to go to such an extent for ... yah. after all we are friends, and friends simply get over little things like that w/o vegenance, that apology was already enough, i still think you don't have to go to such extent! that way, we all live happily ever after :D!

i am of without faith, courage or confidence;
a person without good values or a nice, generous personality
resigning into my shell is the only know-how thing to do.

Happy birthday (:

2008-09-03T08:35:00.000-07:00

Happy early birthday to my friend Yiyang.
16 minutes more =)

Baar baar din ye aaye, baar baar dil ye gaaye

May you ~~slack more get bad results grow fatter grow shorter be sadder~~(all the opposites, after you watch WALL.E. )

Friends Forever :D
Nine months, going through sunny and stormy weather -
stay happy!!

when you moved me to tears.

2008-08-31T09:49:00.000-07:00

don't worry;
nothing bad is going to happen.
~;D!~

Pictures

2008-08-31T09:02:00.000-07:00

Off for the Best Damn Dance; peifang with yikai's favourite chip(or dale, i still cant figure it out) and me with wenlin's favourite stich(i told her LILO and she said, WHY LILO!?!)
i have confusion for names T_T.

MUTTONS! SUE! And the hot guy whom I forgot his name, hahaha!
anyway, congratulaaaaaations to wenlin who won many many albums! but on a sadder note, she was EXTREMELY EXTREMELY EXTREMELY close to win avril tickets, sob T-T.
its always good to look @ the brighter side,
we get to take photos with DJs, and she got to win many albumsss, and free $2 coin :D!

whenSurprisinglyuwe saw E.T there.movedme

to tears. and look, E.T(WALL E!!! AHH~!) behind! (:

Hui Min spotted an extremely big candy floss for $1.50, laughed and ate like two happy kids whahahaha!

why!!!!!!!!!

woooooooo, lets hope both of us won't get stomachache :P
and let us both not lie that we did not have stomachache,
(can't stop laughing about the story of stomachache)
don't give up girl, *winks*.

(chipmunk).

we had a good chat, lovely time in the train! i really felt for her when she said the story about thailand... omg... i think if i was her.. i'd not be able to take it as well..
one month, one.
it seems so far so short so long so near. right?

-x

2008-08-30T07:35:00.000-07:00

This song is not yet released; ~DaydReAm~ by Avril. (:

photos

2008-08-30T07:23:00.000-07:00

taken by jinxuan's new handphone (woaaah so nice I want T_T)
xinyi's sexy lips over there, ahem. jinxuan recalled an embarassing incident
where I called jinxuan, saying,
"HELLO? MAY I SPEAK TO XIN YI PLEASE????"

HEHEHE. :D

"Like old friends talking about something ~~short~~tall, yet something that is really long. :D"

=D

2008-08-29T02:15:00.000-07:00

today Aces Day aka Teachers' Day very very fun!
we did some sort of dance work-out for Aces Day;
thanks for enthusiasts like Joyce, Ka Shun, Sara, i actually wasn't looking forward to school...
handled out the little hand-made stuff to teachers, mum always tell me not to waste time since they are going to throw it away, but at least i'd just want to let them know that I'd wish them a very very happy teachers day and they matter to me :D!!
Do you know, that almost every teachers skip their meals just to get things done for us?
They suffer so much in silence, but yet do not think its suffering at all.
T_T.
best thing about tonight is that we're not fighting.
I'm extremely jubilant, happy, overjoyed when Joyce wished me HAPPY TEACHERS DAY!
It makes me feel like a teacher more more more; *grins*
And when my uncle asked me what I'd want to be when I grow older,
before I Could say anything, he said , " You look like a teacher ! "

woahahahahhahahahahahaa *goes crazy*

After school, xiuyi was emo-ing.. ):
don't know how to un-emo- her...

went to macs meet xinyi peiye jinxuan.
aiyeeeeeer, kenna lemon about my height again at the toilet *AHEM*.
saw Jinxuan's friend, i think its called Kevin or sth..
i don't know who he is, but he actually knows me!!!
must be Seah Han's information? but ya, he said Jin Xuan mentions me in class..
awww.. so sweet.. thank you for mentioning me in your class conversations, HAHAHA! :D

went back to peiying,
The following are the very exact words Mrs Haniza said...
"SHERMAINE!!! WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU?!!!
YOU WERE ONE OF THE TALLEST GIRLS IN MY CLASS LAST TIME,
NOW YOU ARE THE SAME HEIGHT AS (name censored for her safety)
MELVIN GROW SO TALL ALREADY, WHAT ABOUT YOU!!!"

"Aiya, I got all the bad genes!"

saw stupid gkm, he's grown smellier already.
he said to guan chiap, the Shang Hai Tan Owner(aka RETROHAIR BOY)
while pointing to me,
"hey! your junior!!!"
tsk.
anyway, say wei is sooooooooooo gentleman, he actually remembered to help me buy the badge! :D unlike some people... ask one zillion times also give excuse~! grrr.

the girls went to my house downstairs to chit chat,
and I saw ( A _ _ _ _ _ _ s ) walked past us!!!
* note to self* i must tell elizabeth that HE LIVES HERE!!
woah, how can it be?! He lives here. All along he is living here.
And I think we used to go to the same MRT Station for tuition...
funny..
both you and I know, but you pretend not to know.
oh, we forgot one thing,
BENNY AND HONG PENG!!!!!!! HAHAHAHA!!!!!!!
sorry.. guess i disappoint you too much.
took some photos with Jin Xuan,
dinosaur ages ago we said we wanted to go for Neoprints (Jin xuan, Jia Le, Daryl, me)
but we never did!
so anyway, she bluetoothed the photos to me..
1st name appeared to be some japanese name
"nope, not me."
2nd name appeared to be the honest truth that describes shermaine laulau xD.
Tall.
"YES, that's me!"

And she laughed like crazily, like crazily, like crazily! HMPFFFF!
teh + chicken rice is the best combination you can ever get (:
Friends Forever!
farah taller than lynn
lee pei's taller than farah,
jane taller than lee pei,
jin xuan taller than jane,
xin yi taller than jin xuan,
shermaine leh,
you know. (:~~
BWAhaHAHEhehHAHheHEHhehEHEHWHAshHAHWHASHHWA!!!!
looks like today i found myself again. the crazy girl before all the hurt.

elated

2008-08-28T09:40:00.000-07:00

Today is thursday august;
i did many things today and i'm so so so elated, happy, ecstatic, jubilant!
Today is august 28, thursday.
its kind of hard to believe that i sat in the rain w/o overly..

Lucky?

2008-08-26T07:02:00.000-07:00

we played poker today; dai dee, and stuff.
then xiuyi recommended one 'game'.. to ask questions about the past, present, future.
Gosh, so damn true.. everything about the past, everything about us,
and didn't know what is "Lan Tao Hua" until today;
learned a lot of chinese idioms, very fruitful. :D
didn't know my marmi also very good in chinese,
we always converse in only English.

the future seem bright, If its true, i'd get what I want :D
but if its true... i'd get an infertile husband (LOL) who cheats on me,
cheater! scumbag! jerk! bastard! asshole! *chants on and on*
but i'd have a very happy family, a grand wedding,get my dream ambition,
ooooh and live in singapore and have kids. yay!
that's perfect except for the cheating part.
probably i'd get used to it, that cycle.
well, it should be true, since poh poh played this game,
if it is passed down from ah tai (her special abilities), everything would fall in place.

anyway, after they went, played with gege Chinese Chess(GOSH) and sushido, dai dee again.
damn, can't thrash or pwnage him.
hate him.
#)(*!@$()*@$#()!#@

STUDY!

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2008-08-24T03:24:00.000-07:00

Brain-drained.
Where is your school?
Khatib
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Where were you born?
SINGAPORE! WOOHOO!!! :D
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Where do you live now?
Khatib
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Who do you live with?
my family and two tenants
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What is your fav. colour?
Orange
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What is your fav. flower?
Sunflower and sakura

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Do you currently have someone on your mind?
Issac Newton, Albert Einstein;
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What room are you in?
the Living Room
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Do you exercise regularly?
not now
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What is your fav. food?
too many to mention ;D its all unhealthy stuff
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If you could live anywhere, where would you live?
SINGAPORE is fine.
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How many kids do you want?
Eleven. HAHA. Thats impractical,
two sounds right. See financial situation first.
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Do you want to get married?
Depends on who I am marrying?
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Could you ever be in the military?
I wanted to but my family thought I was crazy ):

Do you like to dance?
Yes
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Do you in believe in God?
Yes
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Do you pray?
Everyday yes.

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What was the last thing you wished for?
can't remember; =x

What is your goal in life?
Grow up, get good job, happy family (: everyday happy happy can ler~.
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What are your plans for the remainder of the year?
Get a job
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When do you plan to get married and have kids?
Above twenty five years old-
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Describe yourself in 5 words
small tiny short minute microscopic
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Is it okay to sleep around as long as no body finds out?
OF COURSE NOT.
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What would you class yourself as?
Er, in 4F
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Do you think you are intelligent?
no, 'dummy' is the word.
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Are you religious?
Yah..

Would you date someone 15 years older than you?
No..i can see a big generation gap there.
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Would you go out with an ugly person if they were really rich and gave you everything?
Yes, when everything includes 'happiness'
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Do you lead ppl on?
maybe accidentally yes, i also dont know.
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Do you have/ever had an STD?
no..

Get along with your parents?
okay bah
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Do you think you are hot?
Of course not, haha!
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Are you a hard worker?
No but last time yah
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Do you have a short temper?
Dont know leh
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What accent do you think is hot?
Er, I'm drawn to Indian's quick pronunciation of words;
its kind of difficult to speak like that- the slur, very unique (:
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Would you rather go out with someone really fat or way too thin?
Depends.
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Do you make new friends easily?
Er, depends.

Do you own a credit card?
Only debit card
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Did you go to private school?
Nah..
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Have any secret fetish?
Swedish meat balls ): have to wait korkor come back from the next round of NS then can eat
*shows withdrawal symptoms*
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Is there something you are keeping secret from everyone?
no, God knows and he's part of everyone(in everyone)
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What would you change about yourself if you could?
The way people prefers to see me as; the way my parents want me to become-
the way God thinks I should be

so gloomy, like-
whats the difference between each and everyone anyway? it just happens,
i'd have to wake up from this dream,
before it turns into a nightmare.

If I should stay I'd only be in your way; so goodbye, please don't cry-
we both know i'm not what you, you need

EVIL!

2008-08-23T07:30:00.000-07:00

1. My darling, my lover, my beautiful wife: Marrying you has screwed up my life.

2. I see your face when I am dreaming. That's why I always wake up screaming.

3. Kind, intelligent, loving and hot; This describes everything you are not.

4. Love may be beautiful, love may be bliss, But I only slept with you 'cause I was pissed.

5. I thought that I could love no other -- that is until I met your brother.

6. Roses are red, violets are blue, sugar is sweet, and so are you. But the roses are wilting, the violets are dead, the sugar bowl's empty and so is your head.

7. I want to feel your sweet embrace; But don't take that paper bag off your face.

8. I love your smile, your face, and your eyes Damn, I'm good at telling lies!

9. My love, you take my breath away. What have you stepped in to smell this way?

10. My feelings for you no words can tell, Except for maybe 'Go to hell.'

All these from weiquan and his friends, you guys so evil, but still funny anyway =D

When I got home from work last night, my wife demanded

that I muz take her out to some place expensive...................
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....So I took her to a petrol station

A blonde gets on an airplane and sits down in the first class section. The stewardess tells her she must move to coach because she doesn't have a first class ticket. The blonde replies, "I'm blonde, I'm smart and I have a good job and I'm staying in first class until we reach Jamaica." The stewardess gets the head stewardess who asks the woman to leave and she says "I'm blonde, I'm smart, I have a good job and I'm staying in first class until we reach Jamaica."

The stewardesses don't know what to do because they have to get the rest of the passengers seated to take off, so they get the co-pilot. The co-pilot goes up to the blonde and whispers in her ear. She immediately gets up and goes to her seat in the coach section. The head stewardess asks the co-pilot what he said to get her to move. The co-pilot replies, "I told her the front half of the airplane wasn't going to Jamaica".

LCD说：我好惨啊…每天给人看。
Keyboard说：我更惨呢每天给人打。
Mouse说：我才惨咧每天给人摸。
DVD Drive说：我最惨每天给人插。
Floppy说：我更惨现在没人插我了。
USB Thumb-drive说：谁有我惨？这边插完就去那边插，一不小心还要被感染。
Mother Board说：不要以为我被很多东西插会很爽，它们插进来后就都不动了，那才是难受啊。
最后, Sound Card说：还说呢…明明是你被插，为甚麽都是我在叫?!?
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heaven cries

2008-08-23T05:33:00.000-07:00

theywoke in the morning, in the wee hours of the daykilled
methe rain is here to remind me againand
iwent to sleep, I chose not to carecan't
gethoping that at the second opening of my eyes i'd see the daylight raysup
everytime it rains.

Physics

2008-08-23T05:11:00.000-07:00

woke up early; tuition, decided to ask daddy out for lunch,
since we haven't eat together for a very long time,
kind of difficult when one gets older, but its best to make an effort,
(Psst! Melvin Lau is back!!!!!!!! :D He has three moles in his head, wooo, holy monk(ey)! WOO~~)
just like how kor kor manages to make an effort to spend time with us,
dating us out.. woot, i still love that treat to lai lai restaurant,
hopefully he treats us to Botak jones tomorrow and i'd get to rip him off, *grins*
i remember when i was young, i'd always go eat Macs with mummy and korkor,
then sometimes papa will take the whole family out to a faraway place for supper.
and sometimes, papah will suddenly bring us to beach, out of a blue.
sometimes he'd be sooooo scary,
that is, i remember when I was four, in australia,
he scared me like crazy by bringing me into the haunted house... very saddist,
he would bring me so close to the ghost, it was so frightening, that from then onwards,
i have always been afraid of the dark *grins*. I can never forget that fateful day, haha!

so anyway, as usual, I didn't know what to eat.
Papa, " Roti prata ? "
Shermaine, "Okay! very long never eat already."
Papa, "Cannot la, roti prata oily, later your face grow more pimples. "
Shermaine, "Wah, but I very long never eat already! And somemore you recommended me to eat Roti Prata."

Very funny, his indecisiveness, just like mine man!

so yah, had a gooood chat with him, but I guess no matter what I say or do,
it takes a long time to hear him praise people.
why did I learn Canon in D on piano? Because he likes Canon In D mah,
so I practised, and learnt how to play it, but still sucked, so doesnt matter...

i can't pass, i can't pass, fcuk.

dont dream!

2008-08-22T09:47:00.000-07:00

If I was snow white,
tall elegant and poised for beauty
I'd not stand here for another frost bite
My skin stained, pierced and filthy.

If I had blue eyes,
like the ocean blues that see no pain
Sight of an angel, purity of a saint
My vision now tattered- broken and of a certain hue.

If I had a sweet soothing voice,
I'd calm you down with every single song.
And my whispers will cause winds to dance along in rhythm,
and every shout will be a call for your presence.

Raining.

2008-08-22T08:07:00.000-07:00

Hear the rustling of the leaves in the rain, oh how they cry in vain.
The trees are dying, their branches aching, but no one knows their pain.
- Wei Quan.

Geography was quite fun today; ~~I feel like killing Mr Stanley Lim.~~
don't know how to do much.
So I looked to the left, and saw Xiu Yi,
and aha, everything came right on and made sense.
So I kept smliing and laughing throughout the exam, gosh, the teachers must have thought I am crazy. Xiu Yi kept mouthing the words "FREAK", Ka Shun kept bullying me, and Wan Qi too, *speechless*. T_T

After Geography, waited for Yi Kai to go Chong Pang KFC study with the rest.
The KFC cheat Yi Kai and my money (T_T) But nevermind, its worth it for CHEESE!! X:
Gosh, suddenly had the mood to study Physics right on. and Shao Liang's so damn rich, I can't believe he is so damn rich, and he has the same phone as Gege but only BLUE colour. Why didn't you take the BLUE colour but bought the ORANGE one instead?! O_O

We talked a lot of crap in Chong Pang, and I felt greeeeeeeat suaning Shao Liang to my own pleasure, *laughs*. That serves him right for calling me short, giraffe, etc. every single day!
There was this white cat outside KFC really cute, it slept in a very weird kind of position.
wenbin as usual said a lot of lame jokes, kwok sing was studying his japanese, yi kai's talking about haha, [harry] potter!! until now, i wonder when will [harry] potter grow more hair?
*LAUGHS LIKE CRAZY* HAHAHA!
And it rained...

Finished the MCQ tuition homework, they were of great help, but NOT a great help when spamming my paper with what, one sheep, two shit, three sheets, four ships.
This sheep thing is getting into my nerves! Did you know that comprehension answer which was supposed to be "There were sheeps grazing in the grass." and I wrote "There were ships on the grass." ?!! ONE BIG CROSS AND QUESTION MARK down there by Mrs Yeo man!

nobody is able to see...
Went home, rushed for tuition, and saw Randell in the station!
Anyway, its the first time we had such a long conversation in the train, and I am extremely happy that he has already achieved his dream, now going for the bigger one. Gosh, only 18, but so successful. I hope I can be a teacher soooooon~
Saw a Malay Boy carrying a big bagpack on the way to tuition,
and Joyce was saying, " Go Help him carry his bag ~!!"
I ran after him, but he ran away, *sobs*.
and ahem, wenlin and gege came at the same time, ahem.
I love Children, but NOOO I'm not a paedophile wenlin!
Gege was very funny when he said "Bork's in AMK" and looked in the Marina Bay Direction~

that cry.. in vain.. in pain..
after tuition, came home and I said,
"Your Highness!!! I'm Home!!!!"
And my marmi replied.
"Princess!!!! (of the Lau family, I think I'm a pampered brat.) Welcome Home!!!"
And bowed down,
and I bowed down to her,
and she bowed down to me,
and I bowed down to her,
and she bowed down to me again,
and I bowed down to her,
and she said ," Cannot already, backache."
now it leaves so many scars, i can hardly believe anything.
is this really a dream?
Can I really...?

HAHAHHA!!

2008-08-20T00:35:00.000-07:00

LOL.

laughing non-stop!

i want to cry(laugh until cry) already!
i know i've been like a oxymoron lately, always contradicting words like dead happy X)
anyway, if you see the little girl's video,
the way she sing( her action ) reminds me of the other time where i tried to expresssss my feelings singing Dang Ni to xiu yi and joyce,
and it became a perverted action which is .....
eeew T_T. my innocence.

XD

2008-08-18T16:46:00.000-07:00

I'M SO DEAD HAPPY because I get to eat xiao long bao yesterday,
but a little bit sad because I couldn't get to eat as much as I want, was too bloated.
I ate Teriyaki Rice for breakfast, Sushi for (LOL, like what _____ proclaimed her meal, MORNING SNACK!), ABC Porridge for Lunch, Ha Gao for Tea break, Ya Kun Kaya toast and eggs for Appetizer, Noodles and Xiao long baos for dinner...
what a fruitful day :D. *winks*

Anyway, I saw the doppelganger or the so-called version of kangming.
but he proclaimed he is not there; oh-
quite angry with him because of the .. stupid comment he made.
stupid... so bad, so damn bad. first time going to ignore you, ugh.

On the other hand, I'm still dead happy.
God knows why. *winks*
its still kind of difficult.
Your faith gives me strength, strength to believe

STUDY!

2008-08-18T01:34:00.000-07:00

EMaths tomorrow *screams*
And haven't studied for it one bit, just eat, sleep, online.
-sighs.
At times I think were drifters
Anyway, had to remove privatisation of my blog,
because my marmi(the queen, which she proclaimed that herself!) kept whining
"WHY YOU PRIVATISE YOUR BLOG?! I WANT TO READ YOUR BLOG"!
-sighs.
Still searching for a friend
Social Studies was okay, I'm damn glad for Joyce's tip-off on Northern Ireland.
-grins.
A brother or a sister
okay! it rained the moment I STEP out of the shelter from the mrt station today,
like tsk. why is heaven doing this to me?! and you're crazy about wanting acid rain... *shivers*
But then the passion flares again
LOL. I think xiuyi and joyce is right about the rain hitting shorter people harder,
today's rain were so pressurized, ugh. Kays, shall go study Emaths now.
Chiong ah! =D ahem, don't think too much..
if my mind was as easy as MSN,
wish there was a button to block the thoughts

Stay close don't go.

2008-08-17T05:05:00.000-07:00

Quoted from joyce's blog, (:

我们都是纯净的白纸，需要朋友为我们添上一些色彩。。。
朋友，为何给我添上令人琢磨不定的空白？
你难道还在怀疑我们的友情吗？
既然你已经很坦然的忽视，为什么要隐藏。。。
带有伤感，却挽回不了，那是我最大的遗憾。。。
*
书是死的，人是活得，为什么要读死书？
*
What matters is not who is at the beginning, but who will be there to walk the journey with you and stay with you till the very end.

You should take chinese lit, the way you handle chinese is both beautiful and empowering, *grins*
Goodbyes are meant for lonely people standing in the rain
And no matter where I go it's always pouring all the same.
These streets are filled with memories
Both perfect and in pain

Happy Birthday Sockleng (though I don't know her and she don't know me, HAHA!!!!!!!! Feeling buoyant now,
the effect of Olympics is crippling!)

Reciprocal Question( Shi Fei Ti )

2008-08-16T06:48:00.000-07:00

sorry to be so obscure (: today went Daiso with besties, very fun~ after o's lets go to ikea and novena square ok? i still want my kaybox sessionnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.
on the way home, xiuyi let me hear this song "Shi Fei Ti"
just nice, the meaning of Recriprocal Question!

closed
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我们从不正视那个问题
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我会期待
爱情盛开那一个黎明
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SOCIAL(ising) STUDIES + Chinese(SIGHS) on Monday!
tsk, lets work hard get A1!
"is it broken~ can we work it out? lets light up the town, scream out loud!"

hais

2008-08-15T04:01:00.000-07:00

My computer is working again! This is a miracle, really. I had a strong intuition that my printer ran out of ink, and it really ran out of ink! Can't print my SS notes, wth. Then after blogging yesterday, I turned off the com. And I had a strong intuition that my computer spoiled. It was so strong that I cannot concentrate on reading your TYS, so I went back to on it, and it couldn't turn on. It kept restarting....................... for half an hour, I was so agitated and upset because all the precious photos, notes and songs are inside.

So today, (now), I turned on the computer and prayed "God, please let this work." and it did. God must be very upset with me, because i only find him when i am in trouble, and when he needs me to help people i disappear.

I don't know what to do. are you so used to me wishing you all the best, protecting you and aiding you in troubles, rendering assistance when you are in desperate times, lending a listening ear that i don't exist anymore? when there's nobody to help you, and i don't have a choice to choose what i want to do, where i want to go.......... everyday have to supply you with what you need... that attitude..........

i quit my job........
so tired and so hurt and so painful and overbearing.

grinning

2008-08-14T04:09:00.001-07:00

the people who took oral today are really lucky! they got a repetition of a past oral examination, they'd better fare well, esp joyce and xiuyi. Please get Distinction!!!

hope huishuen got the pen she wanted, she's not online now ): Good luck in her Eng!

anyway, practiced ENGLISH oral(gosh, jh damn sick!!!) with teacher sheep, great difficulty to attain a scrupulous performance, damn nervous for tomorrow already. the motto of "leave tomorrow's event to the next day" is not working. yikai's burning hot today, hopefully she can get cooled down by the presence of the almighty refrigerator, and of course... ks and sl(who seemingly heat things up further). I want to learn Japanese.. shaoliang wrote many many many japanese characters, upon which I do not know how to reply... one day, you will get it, taemae X). waste paper. waste trees.

greatly touched and extremely appreciate kor's treat to mos burger. thank you very very extremely much... its my first time eating teriyaki burger, do you know?! i was quite surprised, he's always so generous, the other time treated to the whole gang a couple of drinks... now a Entire Full Set Meal of Teriyaki Burger.. forcefully... sighs... you look so tired and withdrawn, lighten up man!

hope o'lvls over soon, can't wait to see yvonne dye her hair purple, going to pull and tuck at that strand of hair, hahaha. bald hair is my favourite kind of hairstyle, *nods* i'd love molesting my brother's cleanly shaved hair, hope he comes back from NS soon, =D

slow down! slow down, slow down
when in trouble, you seek me out. when i'm in trouble, you stay away...

hehe

2008-08-13T08:16:00.000-07:00

what can I say? beautiful.
did you know the grand canyon was actually a waterfall in the past?
and one day, the whole world.. the 7 continents will piece back into one land.
i'd be dead already, *sighs*
one lifetime not enough =x.
fun peace laughter love joy.

Ace

2008-08-13T07:37:00.001-07:00

Many thanks and appreciation to those who have aided me in getting a B3 for my Mother Tongue Exam! (: They are Joyce Ng(for lending me her past year notes), Yi Kai(for the TYS), Zi Peng(for profound chinese idioms), Xiuyi And Joyce (for their endless corrections of my mistakes, HAHA), Kang Ming (for .... the xiao long bao that i am going to receieve soon) , and ... ________, who helped to edit my composition and gave me books, I GOT THE SAME SCORE AS __________, B3! I remembered you expected worst, hahaha..... but B3... like teacher, like student.
And i know its late but im waiting
For the moment that ive been anticipating
i just have to go about not getting in your way,
I would also hope that God bless the oral examiners, they were so kind to me to give me a M... it should have been a P... but thank God, thank you, T_T. glad I didn't get C D E or F... which I've been getting since sec 2 or 3..how i used to believe that you won't do this but you did...

just have to pretend that everything is okay.
and your eyes swept past me like the way you gaze at things,
Vietnam's going through some kind of disaster floods now, feel kind of sad for the people living there, and here we are so alive, so blessed.. shouldn't wish for more, shouldn't pray for more....
and close my eyes everytime you were together,
finally i understood the meaning of 'falling, forever'.

you will not remember.

2008-08-11T06:19:00.000-07:00

All these thoughts are leaving you tonight. I'm dubious, but we just have to abrogate the rules of our lives. Feeling languish, as soon you will forget everything. If there was a dovetail, wish we could barter our connection. I have never seen such a cynosure, and maybe it causes me to have a penchant for a predominant stranger.

A rueful plight. A wry remark of the future. Don't be morose, don't be melancholic. In a bevy of strangers, there's only one who will write a eulogy, the one I'd bequeathed my last drop of emotions.

And so do you muse?

so young

2008-08-09T18:38:00.000-07:00

i cannot believe that i am supporting her. ok.. maybe not supporting.. but just being a spectator. Many people with no eyes to see, ): if I told, I'd be 'killing' a person.
If I didn't tell, the person will get 'killed' sooner or later anyway.
To tell, or not to tell?

ANYWAY, I'M EXTREMELY HAPPY! :D
The entry I sent to St. Francisco on the theme of true friendship has succeeded!
Now, huge posters of Joyce and I will be all over Francisco, like the one below!

i'm just kidding
its photoshopped. xD

how nice to be tall,
you get to be an air stewardess, or be in modelling!
besides, smaller surface area gets colder easily (the theory of mel T-T)

i was reading joyce and yvonne's older archives today,
refreshing memories (:

Yesterday was terrible, not the way I wished it would turn out,
a normal fine happy day.
but GOOD OLD MELVIN KORKOR treated us to Lai Lai's Restaurant.
so yes, everything gets better at the end of the day.

strangled.

my Amaths physics and chemistry still cannot make it. damn it.
i can't go into a junior college, damn it.
i can't do anything, damn it.
always destroying my motivation to work hard when i want to...
tsk.......

Wake Up Call.

2008-08-08T09:48:00.000-07:00

what was my initial purpose?
what was my initial dream?

to live&love life.
to be a teacher, someone caring and passionate and gives a direction.
now i'm lost in my own pathway,
and i will try to get back to where I used to be,
being there,
working hard, studying hard(i've drifted too far away from that),
and..
and letting you go, forgetting you, not noticing you.
just keep smiling :D

i will always remember hannah's words in her spontaneously -written card.
I am damn damn damn damn elated and happy for that,
I appeared in someone's thought (:

we will know who is who at the end.....
enduring success! how can I forget?

BESTIE

2008-08-08T08:30:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOYCE TAN =D!
[lol you used to like gray and now maybe yellow, and all colour looks fine to you, so i don't know what colour to put.]
HAPPY NATIONAL DAY SINGAPORE! =D!

and welcome back BOTAK HEAD aka Melvin Lau Lau Kor Kor~! =D i still have to call you kor kor, *shakes head* actually tried to say "Melvin" today but he didn't respond.

"KOR KOR LA, WHAT MELVIN?!", said my brother.
Imagine thirty years later and I'd still be calling Kor Kor. Maybe its a very important title to him, i'm starting to understand that sloooooowly... wish he could call me something like "mei mei" or "maine", "shermaine" sounds so formal for a family member =x.

lol. looks like today afternoon was really fun and exhausting and tiring. xiuyi joyce went home at around 6pm after playing rounds of daidee and cheat and twenty one. Even my brother couldn't take it watching me play, i KEEP losing. initially played two-three games of pool but somebody so ________________ and destroyed our happiness, taking away our fun time together, how exasperating. joyce xy will understand what happened. ):

bazaar was quite sian... without money, you can't play games. without money, you can't buy food. but anyway, its still fun watching others play and then playing that *dont know what is it called* game with dai zhen and xiu er, as well as the crocodile, yvonne's finger always get kiap-ed. wahahaha! saw yiyang and openly stole one HOT dog for xiuyi, damn funny about taking the wrong chilli paste. i know i get amused easily, *smiles*

ks actually had to CALL my house phone. i was quite surprised, sorry i neglected... sighs. but you understand, right? yeah. superheroes shall rule the world (:

tuition was like the wind breeze coming through, it was over very quickly. gege, sorry i was such an irritation. like wah, the crocodile's thing so true about "Who's the most irritating one here"! but nevermind, let it go, and i'd remember the times to keep warm, and the promise i must keep..... and the promise you cannot break. once again, sorry... really very sorry. *SIGHS*!!

I'm HAPPPPPPPPY and looking forward to tomorrow ! :D Going to go out with papah mamah korkor together, its been a long long long long time since we've went out to catch a movie. Haven't seen korkor and papah for weeks, he starts driving night shift and I am only home after he goes to work. Luckily there's still mummy to nag at me, helps to cook etc., and luckily there's still mummy whom i can talk rubbish to...

Its always funny when she goes "wah, you ki siao today again ah"
or "dont sing so loud, tenant sleeping (when they havent even come back, hehs)"

trying trying trying trying trying trying trying.
and will never stop trying.
never never never never stop trying.

pathology

2008-08-06T03:03:00.000-07:00

pathology, is the dissection of bodies ( fat tofu's ambition ) . so yes its actually a professional job, and there's a movie called "pathology' now but sighs, its R21.

anyway it reminds me of an incident at angmokio hospital where I saw a book on the doctor's shelf on it.

Me, "Papah, what is pathology?"
Papah, " The art of Pa-tuo(dialect for dating) lor. Someone want date you out is it?! "

I am craaaaaaaaazy over secondhand serenade! the only ones who think his songs are NICE are Yikai and Melvyn, followed by Kashun (not bad ), Xiuyi (i only like one of their songs) and Joyce Ng(okay, i haven't hear their songs for a very long time already). Wenlin said it wasn't nice, I guess her genre is in those that starts with a little guitar, then with a little drumbeats. Yvonne Teo's would be fast songs, which I'd think she will go crazy if I put her in MOS, hahaha! I still don't get whats the difference between slow songs and slow pop, *shakes head*

Congrats Junhan and Yiyang in getting in "YOU GOT TALENT?!" Good luck people, lets all take extra notice to bring our ear plugs... *grins*

A TWIST IN MY STORY(my most favourite song)

I like it where he drags "sloooow down", in which I sing this phrase everyday after school to Xiuyi and Joyce when crossing the carpark near our school. There is a big white font pasted on the floor which says "SLOW DOWN" to car vehicles, haha!

I love it when he says " say what's that sound
It's my heart beat, it's getting much louder
My heart beat, is stronger than ever " and hear the way the guitar was strummed!

CRAP! I wanted to be the first to wish Joyce Ng happy birthday, but turns out that there were already people who wished her waaaaaaaaaaaaaay before it arrived.
Then I wanted to be the LAST to wish Joyce Ng happy birthday,
and #*(&@*$(&$#(@# Chia Yi Yang's message came after mine!

Next year man. Next year!

[Happy Birthday Nicholas Lim aka Smellyb0ib0i (: ]
& the BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG event is coming up, woot!
*winks* Cow's birthday!
AND AND...

NATIONAL DAY!!!!! I CAN'T WAIT!
Feeling so patriotic man (:
Have I told you how much I love Singapore?
For its food, tantalizing drinks, refreshing beaches,
its scenic view of er, trees and clouds..
for its funny people, and a lovely home.
For its security, that I know I can still be safe even when I'm out till 4,
For the way
and for the many things, the many things that I wrote in that piece of composition
and if I did not recall wrongly,
it was a disastrous Chinese Piece of Composition upon which I was criticized incessantly by
XXXXXXXX. _ _ _ _ . _ _ _ _,
but either way.. it changed your opinion for you to stay,
in contradiction, you left anyway.
=]. => .

Upon encouraging BH to speak more English, read more books, and telling him that I can render any help since I aspire to become an English teacher,
here's what he said!
Bork's message:
Wow, I admire the teacher these days. They can handle naughty students like us well leh. U must work hard wor n cultivate a new generation. No lah, bks are dead. Got no pic, nth, therefore when I read i always not thinking to a deep lvl which a normal reader does so. I prefer watching TV as they are better at showing feels. One example is the three little pig, got picture mah so interesting. Rather than all words...

dreams don't come true.
never ever do ):

-

2008-08-04T06:59:00.000-07:00

dead tired.
ice-creams freezes you
kang ming dropped by here to study,
i wished it freeze time too
initially thought he was with saywei but he's actually alone?! *gasps*
ice-cream melts in your mouth
and then my mother wouldn't allow me to go down,
my heart, like ice-cream, melted too.
"SEVEN MONTH! CANNOT GO OUT! ASK HIM COME UP!!!"
HAHA!!
take a look at me one more time
so no choice. i had a tough time, what agony..
just so that i can see it in your eyes
the clothes flew away again,
and that A1 kid couldn't do any maths question that i asked him,
like... *sighs*
you don't have to say, but its not obvious enough
and his excuse,
"i give my full power when i'm nervous during exams,
but with you around, 1% is more than enough".
let love fly like a dove.
won't ask him to come up again anymore (and i didnt want to, it was a forced decision)
1. he poked my lamp with his pen and criticised it
2. i had to pull the chair for him
3. i had to on the fan and lights for him
4. i had to serve him dinner and wash his plate
5. i had to serve him water
6. i was demoralized by his spontaneous artistic drawing of me.
7. i had to control myself from getting a heart attack T-T.
i'not that oblivious!

and i got surprise visitors as well, like... oh my...........
beef is nice, you should eat it (:
i know you counted it X)
BUBBLY =D

=)

2008-08-04T06:53:00.000-07:00

A treasure hunt for joyce ng's presents,
really do hope she'd love them!

joyce tan's birthday is coming as well,
woooooot. i wanna plan a very big and fun one actually,
but funds running low and i owe loads of money to people all around T_T.

debts! like *sigh*.
and my desire to go avril lavigne's THE BEST DAMN THING concert goes "POOF" like that!

creating miracles in rainbows.

2008-08-03T08:10:00.000-07:00

the creation of rainbows.

this is actually the ceiling from my hall! i remember the rainbow in the fish tank,
and how we were like little kids, trying to get a better view of the rainbow in that tank.

i had an amazing friday, saturday and sunday night.
Friday's evening was upsetting..sighs. Anyway, friday night-out is fun yet, maybe, like joyce said, i won't look forward to it as much anymore..
we had dinner together at FC and the little boy next to us was so cute, i keep smiling at him and he made silly faces! *giggles*
Ban mee was good, the feel of sharing food with joyce is fantastic. wenlin ate duck rice, somehow i crave for duck rice now =x.
gege ate fast, it won't be good for his health! and bork is damn funny... i still laugh to myself whenever i think of him saying "fly kite" and "economic class"...
by the way, the whole tuition class was separated into WHITEs and BLACKs.
Its like a kind of telepathy, when joyce, wenlin, gege, bork and I met up,
we all wore white shirt (plain white t's!)
and the other half of the class was in black!

Saturday's morning was tuition with wenlin daryl and gam again. i can NEVER forget the day where gam broke his voice and squeaked "YEAH?!".
Afternoon's lunch with dad before going to causeway point library and
passed some notes. Saw E.T there and we studied... both of us tried to converse,
but the common thing we've got is a cliche for movies, I GUESS only Joyce and I feels that Dark Knight is not a good movie T-T.
E.T aspire to be a Joker, and i was suffocating with laughter by E.T's reactions -_-!

Night was spent with Huimin and yy. we went for the NDP preview, getting a little too high and enthusiastic, huimin and i kept dancing! both of them smacked me on my head and my back, it was a very good "massage" indeed!
the SAF made us a heart *points to photo above*
this year one's not bad. i sang(or screamed) until everyone almost went deaf.
thank you very much for the tickets.

my 15th time watching fireworks and it NEVER fails to make me go 'waaaah'.

we went to marina's carpet grass and started to gaze at stars before sitting up and singing songs from secondhand serenade, zhou jie lun, etc.
Our energies were all drained and we slept on the ride home.

Sunday was spent with sadistic Kashun in the search of joyce's birthday gift(s) =D.
learned quite a few things from her today like not to waste food and that i'd always be taller than her, HEHE. okay, i think i'm the one being delusional here... *grins*
i woke joyce up (mesmerising voice! HAHA) , sorry ! =x
oh YA!, there's a fantastic marvel comic shop beside kinokuniya!

Nightmare before Christmas!!!!!

I've never watched the show, but kashun has such a ... influential power that somehow, I want to watch it badly... after o'levels.
There were coffin dolls in the shop, its freaking scary but dearest kashun thought it was cool and she's in awe now *shivers*!

i was trying to look for "Voices from a Distant Star" stuff,
but to no avail since its from donkey years ago.
Looks like, the distance will get greater, and greater, right..?

those red eyes when you said goodbye, T-T.

wenlin called @ night, hope everything's fine and thanks,
lets pray for everyone together girl (:

i think people who open the door for others and wait for them to start eating first are very polite and courteous (:
yes km i have high-above-the-sky expectations,
but YOU TOO. *GASPS*.

trying, but 's' people are soundless ):

worry.

2008-08-01T09:58:00.000-07:00

...sorry i'm actually the lousy friend.

sighs.

=D

2008-07-31T04:36:00.001-07:00

damn happy today,
thank you!

you're not a lousy friend, not to me.
friends forever! alrighty ? (:

oh i'm so worried... T_T.

there's a roach in my hall just now!
****roach... yes, **** is melvyn's favourite word, like so sick can?! HAHA.
anyway ****roach is so scary,
imagine sleeping on the sofa and one crawling up on you.
Ugh. whats up with those insects recently,
keep on clinging on me?!

liling shermaine (the other class one) yiyang junhan went for audition!
i always thought jh sing for fun, for insanity( yeah my impression of him, hahaha)
hope they get in, i wanna record their song, "I'm Yours" man!
"Please don't please don't please don't~"

yeah actually at the parade square..
oh, don't know, so confuse ): sorry!!

some people should get the facts right
before making false accusations
the truth will come into light,
i have faith in you.
Hold on tight.

Take me away with you

2008-07-30T08:22:00.000-07:00

"wait till it rains!
..coz' the weather defines the people who go and get their own umbrellas!.
..and those who stay with you under the rain."

Remembering what it was like before,
Was it that long ago?
We ran in the rain like we'd never did before,
And held each other--not letting go.

We sat together in silence all night long,
And by daylight shared our dreams.
When I was with him, I was strong,
I believed I could do anything.

But now he's a distant memory,
Unreachable across time and space.
I'd give my soul or anything,
To get a message or see his face.

Everyday I make a vow,
That I won't look for him.
I try so hard but somehow,
I dream of him again.

I wonder if he's forgotten about me,
He's been silent for so long.
I don't look for messages or even think.
I've hardened my heart to be strong.

There's so much space between us now,
But to me he's frozen in time.
I don't pretend he misses me somehow,
Or that I'm someone he wants to find.

I will remember all that he meant to me,
Although I know he has moved on.
But I'll stand at his door for eternity,
Until every breath in me is gone.

When I stand alone in the rain,
Or look up at stars in the sky,
It brings ecstasy--it brings pain,
As I think about the minutes slipping by.

Pain is good--it helps you grow,
That's what you have trained me for.
Well, I have so much farther to go,
Before I can even grieve.

I'm trying to get on with my life,
Live in the reality that's in my time,
I harden my heart so I don't cry,
And hope his memories of me are kind.

I hang on to my memories,
They're all that's left of you,
The rain and the clouds and the dreams of our made-up future,
Your hair and your eyes and old messages too.

Images from the past renew my grief,
I am haunted by the promises I thought you'd keep.
Time is a cruel and heartless thief,
I wish it hadn't stolen you.

My mind will whisper for eternity,
A message--a wish--a prayer,
Just one thought to you from me,
Remember, I am here!

edited
[blanzflor, deviantart.]

HAHA.

2008-07-30T04:47:00.000-07:00

HAVE FUN AT IPOH!!!!!!
I'd miss you like crazy, like insane, like lunatic, like mad,
without you tomorrow!

Luckily, someone would sing songs with/for/to me!
GOOD LUCK !!
All the best :D

wheeeeeeee.

the ghost of you.
your bravery and your courage,
your patience, your perseverance, your willingness...
got me thinking, and perhaps,maybe, i was.... moved.
no, i shouldn't doubt the future.
for awhile more, just take it slower,
just for awhile more...
let's share those dreams, together.
and i'd promise you, forever.

how strange when you're not here .

i think i don't know anything anyone anymore.

So You See.

2008-07-29T04:36:00.000-07:00

i like the way you call me "shottie",
and maybe i'd only you are allowed to call me shottie,
since you've made them up of an abbreviation using clump of excellent adjectives that made me smile :D
but without 's' is still nice haha.

"i had a long talk with my husband, and actually i'm quite upset about it".

i think mrs jesse tan is one great teacher, one great woman and she'd get good karma for her excellent, caring character and personality. i'm elated that she's pregnant,
but somehow i'm afraid that she'd put the blame on the baby should anything goes wrong,
so i'd be praying every night for a safe delivery and a smooth journey.

drown your sorrows in me.
don't. don't do things that will cause regret.

Voices from a Distant Star is nice! Thanks a bunch.
i don't have to scream or talk or whisper to make you listen
the light rays in the morning sky will still glisten
and i'd be here because of one reason.
until you break the silence,
so please just break the silence.
(: The whispers turn to shouting,
the shouting turns to tears,
the tears turn to laughter
and it chases our fears.

I want to play foosball with Joyce(T)!
hopefully the table is still there tomorrow (:

oh, my school.. a lot of "gentlemen".
i guess so far, the only pure gentleman i know is from Kranji Sec.
its been one thousand years since we've talked, dee.

don't do it.
take it as "not worth it".

Today.

2008-07-28T02:46:00.000-07:00

It was fantastic in the morning when you receive a little present from one of your friends,
I felt splendid Joyce Ng! (:

Thank you so very very very much, because of sweet little things like that,
there's a little sense of strength surging in me.

Anyway, Joyce Tan didn't come today ):
I hope she gets better soon!

After school waited for Xiu Yi before going to Buddy Hoagies and Bishan.
It's been a long time since we spent time like this, anyway she's the most understanding when it comes to friends.
And amazingly, she almost blew up with the 'memory' i have,
kept reminding me of the past that we used to spend together.

keep smiling my friend.
remember how we used to be like?
probably no but i'm still here waiting.

Hundred Plus.

2008-07-27T06:12:00.000-07:00

SONGWAVES.
An honorable experience from BPGHS choir's concert,
and at Alice/Claudia/Yang Han's (Nanyang Girls) School as well!

I think it was GOOD.
Better than Peiying's one, it sure is!
Missed the first few songs,
and even had to run one bus stop...
who to blame huh, I wonder. HAHA.

The choir was good if you closed your eyes,
it was harmonious and the range of voices was, woah.
But they should smileeeeeeeeee more.
It looks like they've been forced to sing, some of their expressions!

in the late afternoon, went out with zipeng and kangming like after a dozen years of not meeting and communicating with each other (:
the initial purpose was to go to library, but ended up hunting for km's shirt for his next,
haha, as he termed it, "~~next big~~ date"
How funny, they watched Dark Knight on Friday as well but at different places!
km kept saying "why so serious?!"
and zp was practically, as usual, crazy and lovesick, HAHA.

Best Friends Forever Man. (:
the first photo we ever took 'formally',
and km went like "WAIT!"
me: "WHAT!?!"
km: " i havent take out my spectacles yet".
Ahem, monkey, spectacles or without spectacles,
you still look like a monkey.
psst, zp's got a very HOT 'girlfriend'!

damn upset,
i didn't get to eat xiaolongbaos and km's only 164 cm now.
good improvement, HAHAHA! =X
okay cannot laugh.... karma will happen to me again -_-
sometimes when you're with a friend too long, its almost like you can read her/his mind.
woot.
Here's two songs. The Moffats I miss you like Crazy and 911's All I want is you. I like the second song though!

Nice lyrics man.

well, after the concert, took a little night walk at nanyang girls' school.
It was a very similar setting to "Bu Neng Shuo De Mi Mi",
and we sang Secret's Song as well as ahaha, sang our hearts out to the night.
Tried to learn a little waltz, but ended up joking around.

After that went for supper, MY FAVOURITE WOOT.
as usual, I get teased, bullied, etc.
-x-

Went to library early today with Kwok Sing Hui Min and Yiyang!
Hui Min's laughter is damn contagious. The whole table was shaking with laughter!
*screams* And she started teasing me about my ahem, tall height as well! Goodness gracious.
Kwok Sing has a funny expression, I cannot suppress my laughter, HAHA!
Yiyang's dead clumsy/careless again, is it in his blood?!!!!
Feeling extremely jubilant for I can finish a set of unanswered Amaths questions now.
THANKS! (:

as long as you can be happy
it doesn't matter what status we are.

Friday's Edition

2008-07-25T17:36:00.000-07:00

Okay.. actually on Friday, I wasn't in Joyce's house all day (:
"after school" I said. That means from 5.30 onwards, didn't want to tell you because I was afraid you would get too worried about my state of well-being! =x
So before that, we went to causeway point to catch a movie, "Dark Knight".
Burger king was fun... Joyce and I did an exothermic reaction with pork and miss kitty.
I can't believe that I also tio! Reaction too slow!
Sorry Joyce, about the bag (:
Haosen and the rest is really creative to come up with an idea like that hor.
Pork's reaction is darn funny when saying "no no no" and "Economics Class!"
And, "I learn literature to improve my English".

Well, I went to Joyce's house and thoroughly enjoyed the coziness in there.
It has a nice scenic view, and everything just falls in place just right.
I also bathed in there *giggles*
Besides a plentiful supply of ice-cream that Joyce has,
there is also a plentiful supply of soap, in which I took 5 minutes to finally decide what to use!
Her mom offered me to eat dinner right after eating KFC,
felt so bloated, but her food that she cooks is really nice anyway!
It's up-to-standards, as in I think she would be a great cook if she sells food outside.
My first time of eating crab, there and then (:
I feel happy and blessed.

when I went back home,
it felt more cosier than ever, maybe because my papah was sitting at the sofa and immediately asked me about my ankle, usually i'd be the one to say 'helloooooo' first.
now korkor(real) will not be home for two weeks,
I think I miss him already, -_-' His 'booming' sound whenever he listening to songs..

when i'm old and so are you
i'd take your hand and tell you something true
you are my best friend, together we walk through in life
that way, we won't feel so deprived.

psst. hope you get to find the hidden writings!
*hint* "Open up".

Off to a concert later! Wish Joyce(T) and Joyce(N) and Xiu Yi would go though,
because its so nice to be with them (:

neglect

2008-07-24T07:30:00.000-07:00

"You can't please everybody". This sentence has been repeated over and over again in every novel and from every teacher that I've known. Many times, we tend to ask others what they have done for you, and not what you have done for them. And because of such ideas, we lose ourselves in such disappointment. When we hope, and expect someone to do things for us, we just end up getting upset because of the result. I'm not the bestest friend you can find, the truest one, or a mind-reader as to know when you are upset, or happy, or down, or need me there... but that doesn't mean I would turn you away.

But what is true friends, exactly? I used a simple definition of "Friends Forever".. but then again, it doesn't perfectly fit the description of being true. True to yourself, true to your friends, true and genuine to that kind of friendship shared between the two enmity.

Everyone has a different method of treating their friends. I suppose there are four distinct ways, "the physical touch", "the mental support", "the financial giver" and nothing-in-between.

I suppose Joyce Ng is very good with the physical touch part, she can give a pat in the back, a nudge on your arms, or a big hug without feeling any awkwardness. Yi kai's the mental supporter of messaging, whilst Joyce, Xiu Yi, Yvonne is a financial giver(in emotions and money that is). Sometimes, they are so much more. Its' kind of like the... "I have nothing to say to you, but you understand what I mean right?". As for me, I don't know how to give. I don't know how to potray a body language that helps people to open up, or say the right words that give mental support, or provide financially. In fact, I am a nonentity. Besides sharing my so-called "A1 Notes"... I can't provide anything else.

Best/True friends understand each other. They will know that you don't like someone or something, and won't force you up to it. I mean, I won't force Yvonne to eat rice during lunch right?! It's something like accepting the way she is.. and liking her for it. I appreciate that she will go to the noodle store to have her lunch, its that kind of familarity that we will always share. Like how Xiu Yi Wen Lin Joyce and I will eat Teriyaki during recess, or sometimes the Malay store... and rarely, the chicken rice as well as the noodle store. And then we have a 5-day structured programme of who puts the plates. Such simplicity of friendship and little arguements as to who put the plates, makes me laugh, makes me smile, makes me feel blessed.
As well as to which days Wen Lin would tease me of being a, ahem, hottie, and its quite fun(yes I'm sadistic) to poke her and make her scream!

I have a very, very bad habit that has been riped since I was kindergarten. It's not something that I want, being oblivious to my surroundings when I am concentrating on something.. on a task on hand. It's a bad habit that has been in-built, and I can't seem to change that bad habit. Everytime I watch television or play the computer and someone speaks to me, I will nod my head, and totally forget about speaking to that person. My mother would scream at me for that, she would scream and scream and scream and scream but nothing gets in, only the words from the television. Did I do it on purpose... no. Maybe its due to dylexia, just like Hannah has "A.D.D", where she would do things unconsciously while talking to people... it doesn't matter to me when she talks to me and crumples my paper or spoil my pen etc., I mean, what if you were her and you couldn't help it? (: I can't help it, as much as I want to.

Put me into a freezer and give me a novel I enjoy. I will freeze in there, without knowing that I was in a freezer.

Another bad habit is I have a slow, slow, slow reaction time. Play Speed with me, or any other card games, badminton, or those that need fast-thinking skills. I can't catch up! That is why I feel so , really, extremely happy when Melvyn wrote "SLOWLY =D!" on my Amaths Paper when I tried to think about how to solve the problem. It's such patience that has made me want to be his little sister, that I am confident I can solve the problem in the end. That I still have the time to solve it, that it doesnt matter whether I am "slow" or not... you have the time for me.

Neglection. Many people have felt neglected before... I mean, didn't you see how many times I was tailing behind but disappeared anyway? Or how I lost track of where everyone went, but It's a sign of saying, "I'm right behind you, Gogogo! Whatever you do, I will support you until you are ready to move on your own."
It's not saying "Arg. You ditch me. I will go off on my own".
Of course... upset.. is inevitable. Just like what you said about being 'insignificant'.
sometimes, I question myself if you remembered those times where we chatted till late, or where you rant at me about your problems, or the secrets of your crushes, or the latest movies you love, or the songs that you want, or the times where there was no one left to talk to, no one there for you... and how I want so much for you to smile again.

I love those memories of you and me, walking in the rain in the park, without an umbrella. How you kicked the puddle of water onto me, How I splashed them onto you. And how we complained that there wasn't any taxi. Or how we sit under your block, talking late at night.. for two hours or so.

I love those memories of you and me, sitting on the swing, and you smile whilst telling me all your little secrets. Or the drinks we share, the little pandan cake we eat under my block. Or the times where we walked each other to the bus stop, to my house, etc.

I love those memories of you and me, sqwabbling over food, about where is the best place to go and eat. Or what bad service the people has provided, or the distasteful food that was served.

Its just three months left. Three months together.
Are you going to say
"Three months and goodbye forever"
or
"Three months and friends forever."

Hao Xin.

2008-07-24T06:19:00.001-07:00

*grins*
"回头吧不要走不要这样离开我"

Ka Shun and I are great fans of Cantonese songs!
Anyway, this song was the first cantonese song I ever heard, recommended by my mother.
Kind of brings back all those breakup-times, yeah.

wenlin whispered to me today,
"look who's beside me".

"i know," i said.
it's kind of strange...
at the very same spot
how it was there during morning assembly, during recess, during afternoon assembly.
not that I want to notice it,
its just that when I turn around to see where's joyce/xiuyi -_-

eh, i know I became a little too spontaneous lately :D
but i don't know why..
ghost!

Doctor?

2008-07-24T01:59:00.000-07:00

the chinese doctor said
"no, i cannot help you, you must go see the western doctor on second floor"

the western doctor said
"no, i cannot help you, you must have an x-ray first"

the x-ray doctor(radiographer) said
"what happened to your ankle!"

and i was referred back to the western doctor who said
"there's no fracture, you have to go back to the chinese doctor".

and I said the Chinese doctor asked for you to draw out the liquid from my ankle,
he poked the needle once, and said he poked wrongly,
then he poked it again.
He even asked the nurse "what is this?" goodness gracious.
he was.. well, inexperience.

in the end, he didn't draw out much substance..
i didn't dare to see, too scared ):
papah said he drew out a little bit of liquid though, and blood.

the lump is still there T_T.
anyway, I just researched on what he wrote on my "MC"
it's actually...

A hematoma, or haematoma, is a collection of blood, generally the result of hemorrhage, or more specifically, internal bleeding. Hematomas exist as bruises (ecchymoses), but can also develop in organs. Some hematomas form into welt-like formations that are hard to the touch. Such a formation is a sac of blood that the body creates to keep internal bleeding to a minimum. In most cases the sac of blood eventually dissolves, however, in some cases they may continue to grow or show no change. If the sac of blood does not disappear, then it may need to be surgically removed.

not my leg of course ! (: mine occurs at the ankle.. *sighs*

though there's MC, I don't want to stay at home.
I love school I love school I love school!
Yes I'm insane,
but isn't going back to school during holidays enough to proof that I love school too much?!

This is karma again!
How come everything that happened to kangming,
is happening to me?! ):

I hope I get A1s and A2s like Km, hahaha!

can you believe it?
just less than two years.. i was still counting,
but then i lost count.

TOTAL AMOUNT SPENT:
a lot of $. -_-

I owe $ to Joyce,
and Km and Zp owe $ to me.

If I died,
I shall bequeathed all my 'assets' to my parents, HAHAHA.
Just a joke -_-

Joyceeeeeeeeee, get well soon!!!
thank you.. for noticing me, even if its just a call of my name,
i'm happy (:
wenlin just called me woot!
i'm doubly happy (:

hui shuen is such a comforter..
thank you a billions.

doctor.

2008-07-23T08:11:00.000-07:00

i forgot something,
i wanted to be a doctor.
to save you, your life, your lungs, your ribcage, your backbone.

but i guess there's no need to now that i've forgotten it (:

I have a penchant for writing!
But looking at my terrible English results,
I am rendered hopeless.

Oh what else, what else can I do?!

invisibility and emptiness

2008-07-23T07:51:00.001-07:00

it doesn't matter whether i'm here or not,
but as long as i'm still alive,
when you need someone,
i'd always be there waiting, my friend.

oh.

aha, Daryl's msn pm is 'life= study, work, die life sucks!'
i guess a bevy of the world's population has the same thinking,
now mel, tell me if you still think I am a pessimist or not! X)

faith, hope, love, strength, where has all these gone to?

"You having book club in front here?" asked Kwok Sing.
Merton and I were like bookworms today in school ;D
I was so enticed by the writings of Amy, Amy, Amy.

Imagine having a grandmother who suicided,
A mother who threatens to die and kill you everyday,
a best friend who was murdered,
a best friend who died,
another best friend who has cancer
as well as having to move around the world every few months or so,
into new schools and having to make friends all over again?
Amy's strong, really.

i'd love to play basketball & bowling with bestie joyceee tan,
but my ankle swell up and hurt again!
): i hope the 'doctor' won't do anything funny tomorrow.

I'm feeling so ambitious! My dream,
of being a teacher has been broadened up to be something more..
a teacher to children who have disabilities.
But then again, my mother used to tell me that such jobs will cause a mental breakdown,
and seeing me as a girl who cannot take the fact that the world isn't a perfect place,
I guess she is afraid that I will turn crazy. ):

I wanted to be a neurosurgeon!
But I guess I won't be able to take it when someone, the life that I feel I should be responsible for,
dies.
It will turn me crazy, so I have to turn away from that as well.

So I decided,
to become a normal teacher!
Probably a part-time tuition teacher.
If I could, I wanna be a freelance photographer, or a writer(not an author),
or really, a linguist. So many ambitions, so many dreams!
But looking at my results...
I feel so restrained ):

there's a thin line of difference between
"miss me" and "think of me".
figure that out!

oh no.

2008-07-23T07:30:00.001-07:00

i need a cynosure,
a new sense of direction.
something to keep me motivated,
and makes me think that the ride here is worthwhile.

i was quite horrified, yet expecting such results from Prelims.

what could possibly go wrong?

As much as I want to blame bed bugs for causing me to sleep only two-four hours,
and causing me to get myself out of the house to study in school,
or how cold the aircon was in the hall,
it all boils down whether if I studied correctly, hard enough or not.

well... i almost felt like giving up on studies,
kind of feeling too dejected.
instead of sprouting vituperation of what has happened,
I suppose I should start my engines and fuel up!

On the other hand, I feel very happy for people who have improved
in their work!
Joyce, Yuiki, Kangyu, Kashun, Sara, and many others have made the mark (:
And Yi Yang too, i feel extremely glad ... looks like my Chemistry notes are somewhat, to good use. Though acknowledgements and credits should go to haosen and junhan etc. instead.
I hope that these people will become successful,
and then, HAHA, they will remember me, HAHA.
Imagine hearing your name on stage or on tv,
"i would like to thank __________ for being such a (positive comment here) when I was younger. "
of course, that is fat hope because i didn't do anything to be a 'friend in need, a friend indeed'.

Amy Tan is amusing. but sometimes, I wonder if her biography is exaggerated,
and edited by the publisher as well as her co-workers?
It kind of tell the story of somewhat- my life,
but the way she has written it down in words is so beautifully typed out,
like a composer who has composed the utmost perfect lyrics.

Kinda disappoint my parents.
I mean, they work so hard to pay for my studies,
my tuition fees, and assessment books, stationary etc.
But I am producing grades that are F9, E8, D7.
Thank you papah and marmi,
I appreciate it a lot and I am going to try and show it through my academic results.
But then... suddenly, I believe that I am not intelligent enough to produce ten points.

For one thing, mummy only passed 3 o'level subjects (but she's a damn good housewife mind you),
papah got twenty points for L1R5 o'levels,
korkor got 25 points.

am I doomed?

make it stop.

2008-07-21T07:20:00.000-07:00

I agree with Joyce that today's highlight was P.E!
A few of the girls and a group of guys went to play soccer.
I must say.. our team are mixed of different gender,
and Sara, Wan Qi and I was in HY's team.

make time stop
or reverse it back.
i want to save and salvage these
but i can't help but to say
it seems like
its too.. late...

-thank you. I'm so damn happy for you :D-
=thank thank you. I didn't fail as a last-minute 'teacher'=
-thank you. for giving me the reason to cross those lines-
thank you..
for seeing the perfection...
for the fun...
i'm starting to..
..............
study hard!
lets all jiaYYou jiaYYou jiaYYou

Shuttle**** (:

2008-07-20T04:58:00.000-07:00

My face still hurts now from
EXCESSIVE LAUGHING AND SMILING!
Joyce, Hui Min and Kwok Sing made my day man!

woke up at 7a.m to visit my great grandmother's grave,
then headed down to Novena church to take holy water,
and went to join Hui Min and Kwok Sing at the library to do Amaths!
WOOT. I finished 10 questions! (:
[you know, those with a lot of part a b c that kind]!

Met Joyce before going to play badminton.
Aiya, kenna sabotaged by them *sighs*!
Anyway, Hui Min was DAMN cute, all these times we studied together,
we never really talked!
Then she did One Thousand Artistic Poses of How To Play Badminton.
Firstly, she made a ballet move of catching the shuttle****[censored]
Then, she actually catch it with her hands! (Joyce did that too, HAHA!)
Kwok Sing was the superhero to help us pick up the shuttle**** from the hmm,
hard-to-get places!

And then there was a part where Joyce said something like...
"Throw her your three shuttlecock la!"
Kwok Sing went, "I only have two"..
Actually he meant NOTHING because he really only have two shuttlecock,
but SOME PEOPLE..... *shakes head*

And while walking back to her house,
her imagination run wild and she sang "TEN TEN" all the way while strumming on her badminton-like guitar!

The future Hui Min, (:

We played monopoly in her house,
Kwok Sing was the Loser for the Day..
and the Winner was Joyce Ng Hui Shuen! :D
Goodness gracious, $1000+++ money!
HEHEHE.

We ate Hui Min's mommy laksa,
omg damn nice to eat! Thailand spices, yum yum yum!
Damn fun today, we all went home with serious muscle ache on our cheeks (:

anyway, I returned "Sun Dog". It wasn't my type... I almost cried on the third page,
it was about a boy whose father died when he was two weeks old,
mother hated him for that, and he had a problem with his eyes that he couldn't be in the sun.
Too depressing, so I returned it.

I turned to Amy Tan! Author of Joy Luck Club, never read ANY of her books before,
But I'm reading her biography now. She's amusing really, I almost laughed out loudly
while reading what she has to say!

Kinda sad actually, usually families give support to their children in what they want to be when they grow up!
And my brother just say"You surely cannot one la. No Hope".
Daddy wants me to be abusiness woman or some principal of kindergarten school..
i feel like i can't do anything now, nothing for the future.
No ambitions of my own, no dreams to chase!

PHOTO AND DESCRIPTION FROM JOYCE NG! (:

A photo to show why I (we) love Fridays so much:

"Everybody!
(From the tuition clique, excluding me -.- cus I’m the honoured photographer! :])"
Reason why
Joyce loves tuition : Because She gets to bully Shermaine RIGHT?!
Wen lin loves tuition: Everyone knows the answer! WOOT :X
Sam loves tuition: Because he is not Mas Selamat but Sammie
Melvyn loves tuition: Because he gets to become a girl and J____ would miss him! HAHA!
Bork Hang loves tuition: Because hottie will treat him whip potato?! :D
Deyi loves tuition: Everyone knows the answer! WOOT :X
Shermaine loves tuition: Because there are nursery rhymes at the side of the walls and I get to sing them, because teacher Kim is friendly, because the aircon is so cold I get to wear Joyce's jacket!

loving canto songs, must be under the influence of kashun's. (:

This song is really nice, Yvonne sent me an english version one before ! (:

YAY. Just talked to km on the phone,
like after donkey er, weeks!
He will get it from me the next time I see him,
SOON.

QUIZ

2008-07-19T07:14:00.000-07:00

01. what type of person do you think you are?
- Like YJ, I'm still trying to figure it out! (:

02. where will you go if someone sponsers you a tour ticket?
- Nowhere if I'm going alone. Up to my parents to choose if they are coming with me.

03. what's your favourite thing to do ?
- Sing & Dance, Eat, Sleep, Chat, Watch movies, Listen to songs, Badminton and Basketball, Iceskating, admiring scenery

04. do you think money can buy happiness ?
- To certain extend, yeah.

05. if you have one dream to come true, what would it be ?
- Work for the government and be a qualified teacher.

06. how many kids do you wish to have in the future ?
- A team (11 kids), but of course I'm not crazy to do that since I have to invest a million bucks on one kid. *sighs*! Besides, I think I'd die giving birth to eleven kids at ONE go (yes one time is enough, hospital bills are getting expensive nowadays =x)

07. what are you afraid to lose the most ?
- people around me + memories + my limbs and torso

08. if you win $1million, what would you do ?
- Charity starts at home (: I'd pay the debts, settle some other problems and the rest would go to the sze chuan funds.

09. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you (Marc)
- JinXuan - Beautiful, Selfless, True =D

10. what makes you happy ?
- being around besties, TASTY Chicken rice, vanilla ice-cream, sleeping w/o anything biting me.

11. what type of person do you hate the most ?
- hate? i don't know..

12. where do you see yourself 10 years down the road ?
- either an anchorwoman or a teacher ;D no lah. i don't know if i can survive it through -.-

13. if you could have a superpower, what would it be ?
- I'd grant superHERO my powers of gaining superSTRENGTH and carry me home ;D

14. what do you think is the most important thing in your life ?
- Family Friends Studies Work.

15. any childhood memories you'll like to re-live ?
- From Kindergarten to Primary Six please (:

16. how old do you want to get married ?
- twenty seven- twenty nine.

17. what's the most pressing thing you would like to do in a new-born relationship ?
- lols, let nature take its course, dont have to plan so far =x

18. are you courageous enough to go and tell the person that you like he/she ?
- courage and confidence are two different things.

19. if someone confesses to you, would you accept he/she ?
- The sky will fall.

20. what are you doing right now besides doing this quiz ?
- scratching my ear, i just got bitten f***. and listening to Plain White T's, chatting on MSN.

By the way, I saw this very beautiful article on STOMP.

click here FIRST, then click here.

a TWIST in my story

2008-07-19T06:11:00.000-07:00

Heaven cried a few times today on July 19.
I was wondering if I should break the heartbreaking news to her,
or just keep it to myself till the day I die. ):

do girls cry easily when they watch emotional movies/dramas ? o_O
YY was saying, "wah.. you like to cry hor ~ "
and I remembered (insert name here, she's a girl, and an extremely cool+cute girl)
said that she cried while watching Xiao Hai Bu Ben 2 before, and she told me
not to tell anyone! She's really very cute+cool, haha, thinking about it now.. I still got score to settle with her, =x HAHA.

maybe yvonne will be shocked but i actually cried while watching why why love!
i know (i watched it too late since they had it on youtube long ago)
but.... awww, it just moved me to tears =x

anyway, I don't know why I cry when I watch certain dramas, movies or even Nicholas Sparks novels.
I remember that there was a story of a guy who likes a girl because when she is happy, she smiles and when she is sad, she is not afraid to cry (easily readable).

Sometimes, its really strange how all these different kind of definitions make things become very different.
As in, Like VS Love, Dislike VS Hate, Acquaintances VS Friends..

Initially, I wanted to stay home for Saturday but hated to get bitten again.
So headed down to the library ~
Shermaine, " ARGH I HATE AMATHS!!"
Kitty, "Don't hate AMATHS! Remember what teacher Kim said? Repeat to yourself I love Amaths for one hour! "

._."!

after doing a few more questions...
Shermaine, " ARGH! I DISLIKE AMATHS !!!"
Kitty, " Wow got improvement at least now you dislike already!"

I met Lychee and E-T at the library as well, can you BELIEVE IT?
They cycled all the way from Sembawang Park to here!
I mean, I should have did that.. cycled from khatib to woodlands,
(save 55 cents leh Kitty! Better than saving twenty cents, meow~)
but doubt my parents will allow anyway,
and I can predict everyone's reaction would be
"the cars cannot see you" =D.

oh, and don't be scared of your nightmares! (:
think of happy things I suppose... *hugs~*

I took TWO HOURS to borrow a book.
It was quite surprising.. I just didn't know what book I wanted to read.
I decided to abstain away from Nicholas Sparks since (sadly),
love novels don't look appealing anymore..

And I borrowed a book that reminded me of Yi Kai,
sundog! We used to be fanatics over hot dogs, *grins*

What is the book about? nope, not of hotdogs or the sun..

but a guy with orange hair and frozen skin.
Sounds exciting right?! Ichigo with Hitsugaya WOOT.
Okay this is getting too far with my ~~weird~~ (SPECIAL, remember?!) imagination=x

damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn .
today is actually kang ming's annual dance concert that i've been looking forward to!
i have NEVER seen him dance before,
how I wished I could see him do the Rain dance and laugh at him =x.
sorry I couldn't come too late at night already, ):
shall laugh at you next time after o'levels.

DAMN HOT GUY IN THIS VIDEO! HAHAHAHA =X
He's not yet famous, but he's singing secondhand serenade songs WHILE playing guitar,

i'm actually trying to play cai hong on the guitar.
( Slow down, the world isn't watching us break down )
And I'm longing, for words to describe how I'm feeling
I'm feeling inspired
My world just flip turned upside down
It turns around, say what's that sound!

ANYWAY.

2008-07-18T08:39:00.001-07:00

Mother Teresa's Anyway Poem

People are often unreasonable, illogical and self centered;
Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.

The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you've got anyway.

You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and your God;
It was never between you and them anyway.

;D I'm going to study in library tomorrow, and then going to study with the superhero and huimin as well as play badminton on sunday too (:
study study studies!
yays xD!

existence.

2008-07-18T00:15:00.000-07:00

sad ):

Today played basketball, my fav! ;D
used to play that a lot when i was younger,
so i was reallllllllly excited about it...

i wish i was taller ): desperately.
wish i had longer hands longer legs...
sighs.............................................

You keep smiling I keep laughing.
don't take another step, just let everything be like that (:
and then the dream will come true.....
XD

Post

2008-07-17T04:52:00.001-07:00

I'm going to type out a footlength-long post for this entry,
and try to make my post look as adult-like as possible,
since my posts are deemed to look like kindergarten's writing!
(anyway so ___(insert adjective here)___, two of joyce's friends from 2H'o6 suan my height!
and kashun was never ending for bullying me! hahas xD)

Okay, it starts now (:

some people are born with a silver spoon,
while others have to work their guts out just to make a living.
and then we all think that life is so damn unfair,
when someone treats you in a manner worst than the others.

The short conversation with Yi Jing told me something that
life, is just like that.
She's really contented and happy with her life.
then I wonder if there is anyone out there who has led a life like mine,
many many ups,
and many many downs.
Have they been to the dreamland that I set foot on,
or share the beautiful memories that I can reminisce?

Ka Shun once asked me about the feeling of being heartbroken,
and she asked, "what is love"!
I find it really cute that she thinks about song lyrics while walking home,
and I'd be thinking about how to manage family ties, friendships, studies, and money.

Back to square one, people with silver spoon.
Actually, they don't see how lucky they are.
I am lucky and so blessed because even though I have no bed to sleep on,
there's a roof over my head,
and I have a family and I have friends that I can reach out to.
I was born with no defections,
and I still can't get over my slow reaction time,
and the stupid illness of slight dylexia.

Oh by the way, Today's amaths question had something like
p+q pq p+q pq = __________
My brain exhausted a lot of power just trying to read what is
"pee" and what is "kew"

Despite those false accusations of like what,
stealing money etc., lying to parents etc.,
and despite of all those... broken, unkept promises..
I am happy and contented and blessed and am loving life.

tomorrow's your day.
if we cross each other paths,
i'm going to say.. happy...b... .

Suddenly this song rings in my mind.
I wish upon a star,
wanna be right where you are
You set my world on fire!

eh i really like that jacket. ;D

Consider those conditions.

2008-07-17T03:30:00.000-07:00

I can't help but to heave a terrible, slow sigh.
~Haissssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.

My blanket flew away. ):
The blanket that has grown up with me,
that has my tears shed and splattered on it,
together along with those laughter,(maybe drool) is gone.

This morning, marmi put it out to 'sun it' so that the bed bugs can die..
but it actually flew away and it's gone, forever.
It's particularly nice because of the texture.. soft, silky texture.

And it has my ahem, odour :D. I remember when i was 2-4 years old,
i would lie on it and spill my milk bottle over and then there will be this smell... yum.

anyway i'm on Yi Jing's, ~~Joyce Tan's~~(I'm not an ASS!! xD) and Elizabeth's msn nicknames!
Wanted to screenshot it,
because they sorta 'link' together. But nevermind (:

This is a really nice song about my confusion of the world and society.
(btw the video has some sexy clips so you probably want to WATCH it. Enjoy!)
superhero, I really wish to be a super heroine to save the world.
But then,
I should learn to save myself first.

Extinguish the Bedbugs.
SCREAM!
I have so much WORDS to say that even ONE thousand blog entries isn't enough to fully express how I feel.

T_T!

i love you marmi T-T

2008-07-16T14:24:00.000-07:00

damn it!
GOOD MORNING BLOG (:
This is an anger outlet for me,
since I have no one to turn to for comfort at this hour, *sighs*!
Warning discreet: Harsh content below.

FISH FISH FISH FISH FISH FISH FISH FISH FISH FISH FISH FISH FISH FISH
FISH THOSE BUGGERS.

It's 5a.m now, I woke at 4.
Bloody fuc- oops.......
Those irritating bedbugs keep biting me all over.
Yes, I would feel like a BOMB if I don't spell out my anger.

I have Amaths(woah~) and Physics(woah woah~) prelims later!!!
And without proper revision as well as enough rest,
how am I going to scrape a pass??!

So two days ago, I only had 3 and the half hours of sleep, without taking naps either.
Funny how girls always want to 'talk about it' when they are angry or sad or happy..
And guys would just play games to forget their troubles or pain!
No wonder guys 'pass on' faster, if you want to live long,
TALK ABOUT IT!

If there was a game in arcade call "Extinguish the Bedbug"
I swear I will be the record breaker in the entire universe.
Or most probably I will spoil all the game machines, too agitated, *laughs evilly*

SLEEP, is so important because I DREAM.
And these fishing bedbugs have to wake me up from sweet slumber.
The worst part is, its tiny so you can't find it properly.
And to kill it, you have to get it under your fingers and squeeze it until the BLOOD
spurts out. It won't die even if you sat on it really.

why am I so pissed because it is just bed bugs?
because one, it is one zillion times itchier than normal mosquito bites and you will wake up,
scratching it for over two weeks I suppose.
two, they leave scars.
three, they SHIT all over your bed like its their toilet bowl.

Tho' Kang Ming isn't here, I'm soooooooo sorry for laughing at bugs being attracted to your hair
T_T
This is karma really, *sighs*
I've a hunch the next time I will get bird shit, so I would like to apologize for laughing at you getting bird shit too, *sighs*
hahahhaa =x. oops.

Looking at the bright side,
my marmi has been supporting me throughout the bedbugs night~
(few months back I had them biting me)
she just made breakfast for me and papah, I feel really blessed!!!
and another optimistic thing to look at is that it doesn't BITE anyone else in the house :D.
I take all the suffering, and that feels much better than seeing my family scratch themselves all over and hunting for bedbugs!

also, other people in Cambodia and Africa suffer so much more *sighs even more*.
(well that's not an optimistic thing T_T!!!)

Starting to feel that I am a magnet for insects and bugs,
did I mention before that while walking beside chung cheng pond,
a beetle flew and settled on me?
And did I say that during O'LEVEL CHINESE LISTENING,
out of nowhere, an ANT drop from the ceiling onto my paper?
And did I mention that ...
the breakfast table with my breakfast on which is right beside me now,
is full of bloody ants at this very moment?

On the happier side,
a cockroach went up Caley's leg before.
a cockroach 'bathed' with sinren before ( that's really scary!!)
I have an intuition that the next time,
I will complain about cockroaches.

REAL Brother's going for NS soon ):
though he's always not at home, i'm still gonna miss miss miss him.
*sighs heavily*

have to sleep on the cold hard floor from tonight onwards.
Frozen to teh coreeeeeeeeee~

share with me the blankets that you're wrapped in,
because its cold outside, its cold outside.

Warwick Avenue

2008-07-15T10:01:00.000-07:00

When I get to Warwick Avenue...
Meet me by the entrance of the tube.
We can talk things over, a little time...
Promise me you won't step outta line.

When I get to Warwick Avenue...
Please drop the past and be true.
Don't think we're okay, just because I'm here...
You hurt me bad, but I won't shed a tear.

I'm leaving you for the last time baby...
You think you're loving but you don't love me.
I've been confused outta’ my mind lately...
You think you're loving but I want to be free.
Baby you've hurt me.

When I get to Warwick Avenue...
We'll spend an hour, but no more than two.
Our only chance to speak, once more...
I showed you the answers, now here's the door.

When I get to Warwick Avenue...
I'll tell you baby, that we're through.

I'm leaving you for the last time baby...
You think you're loving but you don't love me.
I've been confused outta’ my mind lately...
You think you're loving but you don't love me.
I want to be free, baby you've hurt me.

All the days spent together, I wished for better,
But I didn't want the train to come.
Now it's departed,
I'm broken hearted, seems like we never started.
All the days spent together, when I wished for better,
And I didn't want the train to come

You think you're loving but you don't love me.
I want to be free, baby you've hurt me.
You don't love me,
I want to be free,
Baby you've hurt me.

T-T

2008-07-15T09:17:00.001-07:00

Its' so nice talking to Joyce Hui Shuen,
because I feel A LOT, A LOT better now.
haix.....................................

Is it going to be like that forever???
Futile efforts.
Not that I do not want to salvage the friendship,
I don't even know where to start when I feel "invisble",
though there were times I wish I was REALLY invisible.

when people chase different dreams,
do we all have to be separated?
different ideology...
perhaps, the problem just lies in me.
i tried telling you things,
but one-word replies don't help a single thing.
I guess I was never someone important before..
if only I can close my eyes and not see you there.
I decided to walk away.

Trying not to reach out; and when I try to speak up
Felt like no one could hear me.
Wanted to belong here, but something felt so wrong still...
I wanna break away.

Behind Closed Doors

2008-07-15T06:59:00.000-07:00

From Friendster.
"

BECAUSE U OPENED THIS U WILL GET HUGGED

ON FRIDAY

BY A PERSON WHO THINKS

UR CUTE

UR NAUGHTY

AND TOMORROW WILL BE THE BEST DAY OF

YOUR LIFE

DO NOT BREAK THIS CHAIN !

BREAK IT AND U WILL HAVE RELATIONSHIP

PROBS !

FOR THE NEXT HUNDRED YEARS !

REPOST THIS SAYING " HOW TO MAKE SOMEONE HUG YOU ? ""

Well, AHEM.
Hui Shuen you better do the honour by hugging me this friday, HAHAs! (:

Earlier on, I watched a show called Behind Closed Doors.

Ooo, don't start going HORNY, because it's not about anything perverse if thats what you are thinking (:

The show is about abuses and all kind of true, factual accounts.
Ranging from child abuse, parental abuse, spouse abuse, sexual abuse and erm, homosexual marriages.

Today's one is about parental abuse.
It breaks my heart to see that there are people like that, so damn cruel to their parents.
Please practise fidelity, people! ):
Sighs it makes me reflect about the way I sometimes throw tantrums at home over little issues like arguments about financial problems, etc.

Anyway, marmi and papah,
I GUARANTEE that I will never, never treat you like that in future.
If my husband is a SUCKER and mistreats my lovely parents,
I'm going to divorce him and kick him out.
*sighs* Hopefully I won't be so unlucky to marry someone like that.
People change, right?
There's still a probability I wouldn't marry, HAHA!

And no, marriages is not a pathway to happiness.
It is a test of how you can work out your differences with someone else,
and overcome obstacles TOGETHER. (:
But that's not the only thing about marriage.
I mean, in friendship you also have to work out differences and overcome obstacles,
then get back together after quarrels and arguments.
Something sacred holds marriages together,
thats why couples have to take a vow.

Lol. That is of course, different from Maplestory vows...
both of us broke it right. ):

still, when I asked,
It was Yes-Yes-Yes-Yes-Yes-Yes-Yes.
Que Sara, Sara, the future's not for us to see !~

MEL-
Good luck for concert! :D
-MEI.
ahem(HAHA!)

"Your beauty seems so far away
I'd have to write a thousand songs to make you comprehend how beautiful you are"

when someone calls you beautiful,
when someone calls you princess..

When actually, I just want to be a normal commoner.

Amaths.

2008-07-15T05:44:00.000-07:00

Quite upset with my performance in Prelims ):
Though results are not out,
my intuition tells me I'm going to flunk every single paper.

I am now convinced that our school teachers are actually
very witty, haha!
looking at the bright side, each paper is a challenge (:
at least now I know I have to work harder.... *struggles*

I should REALLY work harder.
Dashing towards my ambition,
shurikens in my hand!
somethingsomething succession,
stop me if you can
(WQ 's poetry-sorry forgot that bit!)

Oh, I forgot to mention that FRIDAYS are my favourite days now xD
Should I go to tuition this week or should I go for the date-out at Singapore FLYER~
And then I can't wait to plaaaaaay basketball, so long never play already!
sighs! Tuition? Flyer? Tuition? Flyer?
*Brain burst*

and you know how cold it was in the hall,
and you know how cold it was when i curled up on the floor
this friday's gonna suck to the core.
should I go banging against your door?
damn it. x100.
(It said NO. NO. NO. NO. NO. NO. all the way)

Ugly VS beautiful

2008-07-13T03:55:00.000-07:00

Shermaine: Marmi, you want see my primary two photo? :D
Mummy: Yah I see already, the most ugliest one there is my daughter right!

LOLs. now i know why I don't have any baby photos.
people look cute, pretty and adorable when they were young,
but when i look through my primary school and kindergarten photos..
i look like a monster *sighs*

well i can't remember this, but my marmi said
that when i was younger i used to have very long hair,
and i hated long hair and kept eating my hair as well as pulling my hair and throw tantrums.
x)

Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder.
x
Look into the mirror my dear girl,
wipe those tears away!
Chin up, take a deep breath and chase those troubles away (:
Having that kind of ache, that longing and hurt
will obstruct the pathway to happiness~
You know I'm here,
and we all are.
Let us, together, bury the hatchet
and look forward
to a brand new day!
cheer up dear girl.
i'd be your listening ear and a supporting shoulder :D! SMILE!

i'm in LOVE
with Additional Mathematics
AMATHS provide me free transportation,
they drive me up the wall :D

wondering.

2008-07-12T12:47:00.000-07:00

wonder how are you doing now.

who knows what could happen do what you do just keep on laughing
one thing's true
there's always a brand new day =D

life taught me to live,
and living taught me to love,
and loving taught me life.

Distance.

2008-07-12T09:19:00.000-07:00

Don't regret what you've done or failed to do in future.

the lingering stare.

studied in the library with hui min and ks today,
ks was really really helpful even though i was a BIG irritation,
constantly bombarding amaths questions.

ah gege promised not to bully me,
but a few minutes later SHE did.
so wanna ~~kick~~ eat HER man.

PORK bork PORK bork PORK bork PORK bork.
nobody corrected me about bork han's name! i kept saying PORK.
Only today ah gege and joyce said its BORK. oh dear.

Jin Xuan found the primary two photo ;x
. i'm a monster in this photo!

and i remembered the nasty things I did when I was small xD.
a big, gigantic, bully.
i can't remember what i did to wei hong, *grins*
but i remembered what desmond did to me, the 4th guy from the left on the top row..
and i torture teenesh, adeline and min yi
but they dont' recognise me now -phew-

then there's yun ling!!! =D
and jin xuan of course, with shili xD
yuiki, she changed a lot (i didnt know she was in the same class!)

used to be so gullible and thought 'sorry' can solve every problem.

Miss Lim: STAND UP AND PUT YOUR HANDS ON YOUR HEAD! YOU ALL ARE TOO NOISY!
*class went quiet and stand and puts their hands on head*
MISS LIM: YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED TO GO RECESS TODAY!!!!!!!!!!
*class grumbles*
Shermaine: *whispers to Grace* we go say sorry lah, then maybe can have recess! :D
Grace: Huh? are you sure anot? Later she scold us how?
shermaine: i hungry i want eat!
*walks up to miss lim and bows*
Shermaine: sorry miss lim.
Miss Lim: *shock expression on her face* okay, since Shermaine has apologised, she can go for her recess now.

And then Grace went up and apologize and we skipped off to canteen.
don't know if jinxuan still remembers this? XD

and that innocence everyone used to have.

Shermaine: eh, how come I got two water bottles?!
Rocco: Is that my water bottle?
Shi Li : *starts laughing like crazy again*
Shermaine: *hits tummy* NOOO! i think i drank wrong bottle
Rocco: *makes the long EEEEEEEEEKS sound* OMG, you indirectly kiss me.
Shi Li: *laughs even more*
Shermaine and Rocco never ever talked again, HAHA!

lols and Jin Bao is the shortest guy in class,
miss lim like to molest his botak head.
and i will use a pencil or ruler and hit his head and chant sultra =x
and i will pull parampreet hair until she scream(or cry)?

okay enough of my mischievious acts.
thats why I need to do a good deed a day, get it? XD

Tuition

2008-07-12T09:10:00.000-07:00

Tuition seems to end in a blink of an eye now (on Friday and Saturday)
today almost everyone else already went home but
the CCHY and PYPS(ex) still stayed behind worh.

DAMN funny. Gamaliel broke his voice in class!
He actually wanted to answer "YES" to teacher,
but it became a very squeaky, high note and he blushed.

yesterday Joyce keep pairing up with the rest and bully me *sighs*
even 'ah gege' also! *sighs*
physics and amaths is starting to look interesting..
hopefully not too late to scrutinize how this formulas work. :)

I love wednesdays ;D

2008-07-09T02:47:00.000-07:00

Melvin's and Melvyn's phone both went out of battery (sighs),
Melvin took the charger with him,
Melvyn lost his charger...
And so today I brought my primary 4 handphone to school,
blue and bulky but i still love it anyway since it went through a lot with me =x.

Today's paper was ______________.
and the hall was FREEZING.
Wearing jacket isn't not enough.
Maybe I will bring winter clothing *sighs*.

lol those people who wear that white and orange jacket quite.. ahem =x.

then went macs with joyce yvonne xiu yi.
actually i sent something to the CHAT 78800 but then it only appeared on the screen hours later,
ka shun saw it T-T. and bullied me again. *sighs*
shall do this quiz from mel's blog xD

1. At which age do you want to get married?

by twenty seven.

2.Who is more important to you? Friends or girlfriend?

isnt' friends and girlfriends the same? o_O
i'm not lesbian. or maybe i am, for eliz, HAHA.
3. Who is/are the person/people you trust most?

everyone can be trusted bah =D
only some secrets cannot say xD

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?

lol. 'give you an apple, for you to have confidence'
nope, no confidence.
5. What would you do if you saw someone abusing an innocent animal?
i will call SPCA, immediately stop him/her, maybe hit him/her if need to =X.

6. Do you believe in seeing rainbow after rain?

no i see sunshine after rain =x
7.What is your goal for this year?

To survive this year.

8. Do you believe in eternal love?

Don't know.

9. Have you ever broken someone's heart that he/she tried to commit suicide?

T_T. don't know

10. What feeling do you love most?

Blessed ;D

11. If one day your best friend and girlfriend quarrel, who will you side with?

See first!

12.Name one qoute u like or thought of?

"Tomorrow will be a brand new day"

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?

Yah ;D

14. Do you like to hang out with friends?

Yah ;D

15. What/Who do you think is/are the most important in your life?

Family and best friends =D

16.If you were on a ship, your mother and your girlfriend (been together for 2 years) were knocked out of the ship, you only have one life float, who would you throw it to?

Mama. =x

17.If your girlfriend were to two-time you, what would you do?

what else can I do? ):

18. If time were to rewind, when will you want it to be?

Primary Six.

19.Have you ever thought that you've made the wrong decision & you're in a dilemma after that?

Yeah ;(
.
20. Would you die for the one you love?

Of course, i think my family will also do that?

denial

2008-07-06T18:09:00.000-07:00

i am being driven crazy, driven into the corner and i can't breathe.
stop whatever you are thinking and ask yourself
what if you were me.

prelims coming,
still got to do this do that
can't even go to a quiet place to relax and memorise
walao...

the biggest distraction is the computer.
feel like smashing this argh.
*sighs*

don't harbour hope, just let me go..
my life is just about family friends n studies =/

cheebong.

2008-07-05T23:33:00.000-07:00

i really can't study at home -.-
no 22 degrees celsius to keep me cool enough
or the smell of yellowed-stained pages in the air.
all i can breathe is just dust and getting bitten by stupid mosquitoes.

so i ended up playing the computer and watching youtube videos.
woohoo saw those happy times we had together with my family
and in school as well.

SYF dance! damn i still remember being so nervous and we all keep whispering jiayou jiayou to each other X)

then there's this very first time my brother and I were invited on stage to sing in Chinese garden.

and as you can see i freaked out so my brother helped me a lot by
looking at me .

few days ago i saw this song 'when you're gone' in melvyn's phone,
its a century years ago i've heard this song.

choon keat said, " YOU AGAIN."
and then he tripped over someone's bag, HAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Last Journey

2008-07-04T08:41:00.001-07:00

felt exceptionally cold in the morning,
maybe it was the rain last night.
couldn't help sitting here recalling,
the past where everything felt so right.

a few days ago it just hit me
love, is more than just a melody
it's like a dove flying free
in the wind filled with melancholy

i can't take the pressure
of the words that are haunting me
even though you have tried to reassure
i think time will be the best teacher.

today the journey home was long and tiring
and this must have been what you have felt
i was selfish wrong and overbearing
to tie you down in a broken black belt.

the book you wrote
the book you gave
that very page i didn't read right away
the feeling i thought it was
the feeling i thought it was not
the feeling that i do not want to think about anymore
the pain i put you through
the sorrow i brought to you
i confused the lines with a total truth

i forced you to smile
and that made me regret
i gave you a warning
which had no effect.

we see the world in different views
I told you it was a beautiful scenery on the way to school
that very first impression i had of you
was a mirror image split into two..

sorry...
this is a totally different story...
i hear those words
i saw those eyes
there's nothing i can give but grief.

Freaky Fridays.

2008-07-04T08:25:00.000-07:00

and the long ahem, awaited day has arrived.
I like Fridays because it is the start of weekends and school ends early!!!

but to my dismay,
my very first exclamation "WTF" burst through from my mouth when my handphone
dropped into the toilet bowl T_T.

i remember dropping my wallet into the toilet bowl before,
now its my handphone,
the toilet bowls dont like me is it?!

arhh. and then I STEPPED on chewing gum.
last time it was dog shit, now sticky chewing gum.
Crap. I can still feel the EEW-Y feeling of putting my hands inside the bowl...
(don't worry i haven't peeeeee yet, but i have a sinking feeling the first user did not flush the bowl, CRAP!)

well kang ming must be laughing his head off when he reads this,
i shouldn't have laughed at him when birdshit and bugs like him and that he cut his head twice...
now karma is happening,
i must be prepared T_T.

also while walking home from tuition,
don't know what deyi or wenlin did to joyce and me,
something happened(sighs joyce) and i screamed again
like, omg. so embarrassing?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thurs

2008-07-03T04:55:00.000-07:00

today is thursday.

I wish I was invincible,
but it turns out I am invisible.

No, actually..
I wish I was as invisible as you make me feel.
-
[c=12]-((weiquan))-[/c] crappy results says:
hmm.. if you need help, im here. Btw... the more i look at yr dp the more i feel it looks like you>>>

=]. thanks, really, a bunch.

hey there stranger.
that perfection, that addiction, that attention
in my direction .

X(

2008-07-02T02:10:00.000-07:00

I MISS MEL!
T-T
hahaha. crap! before he go overseas,
i forgot to ask him to install the samsung bluetooth,
now I can't transfer files... argh T-T!

damn irritating.
Shermaine: remember to help me buy things when you are over there!
Melvin: What things?
Shermaine: anything that suits my age.. clothes... shoes... bags...
Melvin: *holds out hand and says* Money?
Shermaine: *takes $2 and puts on his hand* THERE!
Melvin: Yah okay. That's just for taxi fair.

I must have been depicted as a stingy sister. xD

can't help feeling odd one out.

Rubbish

2008-07-01T06:41:00.000-07:00

chinese oral murdered me despite all the good lucks and all the bests from those very sweet friends..
i had the oral examiners answering the question and helping me throughout man. ):
yeah thanks Mr. Anything, I won't think about it anymore, hehe ^^;

and Darryn is so funny!!!
he sent an sms "good luck for ur oral tmr"
an SMS that came one day late. :(
if I had one more "good luck", would I have better luck today?! ARGH.
siaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan.

such beautiful eyes, stained with tears of pain and agony.

We are made to be kind, compassionate, loving and giving.
but envy and jealousy blurred a person's vision...
In time,
I gradually slip away.
sitting alone and walking at the back,
where do I belong?

if only you knew me. would you still have that idea? damn it.

124th post.

2008-06-30T01:34:00.000-07:00

ah choo ):
i can't stop sneezing!
tomorrow is oral day. damn it!
sighs! this week nothing to look forward to..
ok, wait. think positive.

Hopefully, I MAY get my little dragon buns soon.
Oh, that's all. =(
And hopefully Friday would be fun..
Yes, I shall look forward to FRIDAY, bully Joyce and hmm, ahem. Shuai gege, LOLOLOL. :D

His surname is Lim.
His name is Pre.

Pre lim is going to kill me man. ):

Here's an EXTREMELY perfect,emotional, tearful hurting song from
secondhand serenade's new album.

"Goodbyes are meant for lonely people standing in the rain
And no matter where I go it's always pouring all the same.
These streets are filled with memories
Both perfect and in pain"

notice thats why I never say goodbye to anyone :D
except cya and bai bai.
because when I was primary 6,
hmm. you get what i mean..

sometimes I can't remember but when I do,
I wonder if it was just a dream.

WAH SO TRUE.

2008-06-28T02:43:00.000-07:00

☆ 恋爱数字是3
　　
你富有幻想力，好玩，喜欢寻求刺激，表达能力很强。你魅力过人，身边不会缺少朋友和裙下之臣，有时会因兴奋过度而态度嚣张，喜好得失通常在朋友间都会以玩笑的态度打圆场。你妒忌心颇重，但通常是在男友的故意挑剔下表现出来，你喜欢运动型和富有艺术感的男性。
　　
最匹配的星座：白羊座，狮子座，射手座
　　
最佳男伴生日：3，12，21，30。

Poem time (:

2008-06-27T23:49:00.000-07:00

thanks Jin Xuan for the dedication! though I didn't hear it..
well it was fate that yi yang heard it and told me, haha (: thank you thank you.
:D

well, yesterday's tuition was so sleepy and tiring but I got to know a guy named Melvyn
do you know my brother is called Melvin? well, I will still make you my best friend man.
and tried to played a fool on him (or was it Joyce, hehs! :D)
but failed, thanks to Lim De Yi .
oh don't angry, Joyce and Melvyn.. years of experience will tell you i like playing pranks ;D
just like how Joyce likes to take my things and 'poof, disappear!' hahas T_T

so yes, secondhand serenade rocks !

I like the strumming of their acoustic guitars and EXTREMELY romantic lyrics (:
Of course.. not their emo- songs... though 'goodbye' is an emo song,
it is a nice song with that sentence "We're better off this way" :D

and i saw a poem on 'tears' from Mel's blog. comments on it?
its very finely written... i can almost feel that kind of pain. awww.
lost touch in the creation of 'poetry'
so here's a ... ___(insert adjective here) one.

Outside the rainbow centre
Now lies a lonely road
In the soccer field where laughter used to ring
is just a place where lonely birds sing
Either way the view is still, beautiful.

Crossroads are meant for T-junctions.
Buses do not wait at bus stops forever.
Faith will continue to restore love in function
Without you I will try to find my wings and fly.

So here's one to Tears, in retaliation to Mel's one. :D

Don't catch the tears
that are made from pain
For they are meant to be fallen
from the sky as rain

Don't take that lonely tears
and put it to your heart
There's no point remembering fears
that can make you fall apart.

Take away those tears from your eyes
For they twinkle and shine in the darkest night
Put a smile across your gentle lips
And wait for that new morning sun to begin.

There it is. :D I love the powerful words of English.
many people still fall in love with Shakespeare for his description for every moving scene.

Laugh.

2008-06-26T07:12:00.000-07:00

Joyce (Tan) wanted to laugh at my friends photos.
So here it is.

Thats Joyce(T) above, MOOO.

Okay. remember, its TOP secret ah.
Yeah, I don't usually say such mushy mushy stuff in secondary school already but,
haha, Friends Forever :D. (hair stands)

:D *grins wideeeeeeely*

Little Black Umbrella

2008-06-26T03:44:00.000-07:00

Oh, and my umbrella is also friend give one.

I get what you meant about the rooftop now Joyce. Haha!
Money. T_T

I wanna see that STAR!

She walks by, pretending the whole world is her fantasy.
A sudden halt.
She rests her chin on her palms,
with her shoulder arched forward like a fallen tree branch,
and as she sat on that stone bench deep in thought,
a little leaf drifted onto the floor.

The cold wind gushed upon her rosy, red cheeks.
She tucked her loose strand of hair behind her ears,
and then folded her arms to keep herself warm from that icy coldness.

"Look," she whispered.
The sea was welcoming a new eclipse, a new moon and a new world.
Dazzling bright diamonds were reflected from the surface of the sea,
caused by the sun's warm rays that penetrate every object of her fantasy.

The image of her sitting there was so beautiful,
that even an artist, can never imitate the skyline of her backview.
The image of her sitting there was so illuminating,
that no photographer can never make an exact copy of it.

Looking up, the sky was filled with cotton clouds.
She breathed in slowly,
and heaved a slow, relieved sigh.
A new adventure, waiting to begin.

HAHA

2008-06-26T03:15:00.000-07:00

YES I REMEMBER BENNY TANG AND HONG PENG.
I bought pineapple tarts from Benny mother before :D
And Hong Peng was my tuition classmates
Both of them were prefects
Haha, everything seemed so long ago!

And Grace Lim, Teenesh...
Haha Teenesh.
He didn't recognise me when I saw him yesterday.
He must have hate me for drawing a pencil line at the middle of the table and said
This is My terrirtory. You do not cross my territory.

Come to think of it,
I have a violent tendency since Primary 1...
Keep smacking him, haha.

OH OH THERE WAS WEE YONG.
Good gracious.
And Adeline.
GUILTY :X.

Today Joyce stole my precious handphone with precious keychains,
scared the hell out of me!
Haha, everything on me is precious..
bag given by friends, handphone given by bro, keychains given by friends,
wallet given by friends.
Pencil box given by friends.
Pen also given by friends.

so maybe I must give you something then you won't be so clumsy anymore huh?
CARELESS PIG.

I Give You My Dreams :D

2008-06-25T06:50:00.000-07:00

TEN POINTS. (:

你还记得我们的约定!
So today Yi Kai made me realize...
but then Xiu Yi was saying another story.

well nevermind too early to say, but remember, ten ten ten!
加油！
and remember not to be careless in your work, hehs! (:

Good nights ;D.

SWEET!

2008-06-24T08:50:00.000-07:00

(PM 11:30) {jjoycee} :	this fool went travelling around the world, and everybody cheated on hm
(PM 11:30) {jjoycee} :	*him
(PM 11:30) {jjoycee} :	they'd tell him lies about their situation and soon, he was cheated of all his belongings
(PM 11:30) {jjoycee} :	ppl took his money, his shoes, his food and even his clothes
(PM 11:30) {jjoycee} :	he had nothing on him and he was warming himself near a fire in the woods
(PM 11:31) {jjoycee} :	when his animal came along and asked if it could eat him
(PM 11:31) {jjoycee} :	the traveller said "yes" and the animal ate his hands, his legs, his body
(PM 11:31) {jjoycee} :	and soon, he was only left with his body
(PM 11:31) {jjoycee} :	the animal said "thank you, and this is a present for you."
(PM 11:32) {jjoycee} :	the animal gave the traveller a piece of paper with the words "fool" on it
(PM 11:32) SHERMAINE ;D:	omg
(PM 11:32) {jjoycee} :	even though he only has his head left, the traveller thanked the animal saying "thank you, nobody has ever given me a present before, im very grateful for it"
(PM 11:32) {jjoycee} :	and with that, he died
(PM 11:32) {jjoycee} :	the character in the anime who told this story told his friends "does the traveller seems like a fool?"
(PM 11:33) {jjoycee} :	"all he wanted, was to make people happy by giving them things that he could provide"
(PM 11:33) {jjoycee} :	"was he being a fool to make other people happy?"
(PM 11:33) {jjoycee} :	"close your eyes and think about it, about how many times you've made people happy"
(PM 11:33) {jjoycee} :	and close your eyes and think about it, think about the many times when im done and you cheered me up :].
(PM 11:33) {jjoycee} :	i love you :].

Thank You sweetie. I hope you get sweet dreams tonight, no more bad dreams. :) Bless You Girl. Made my night :D


(PM 11:52) LÖN3R:	lol
(PM 11:52) LÖN3R:	say as if im the sad person now
(PM 11:52) LÖN3R:	CHEER UP BOON KUAN!!!
(PM 11:52) LÖN3R:	look at the brighter side
(PM 11:53) LÖN3R:	you got the hunk km as your best friend

Yes William Hunk. You are my best friend.. in times of need ONLY. Hahaha, remember my $9.50, little dragon buns. :D.

PSP.

2008-06-24T08:24:00.000-07:00

if you are reading this in the middle of the night,
please stop and go back to sleep.

if you are reading this before you go to school,
please stop and go right to school.

read it after you go home okay.

sorry if I drove you crazy.
sorry if I made you mad.
sorry, I caused you sleepless nights.
sorry, I knew you cried
it was such a big hint you gave..
and to put you through things like that..
i'm sorry, for not believing.
and i know how these words 'sorry'
cannot alter the facts and reality and dreams and fantasies..

words are words. actions are actions.
and whatever you want to prove will change
in future.

i must be so stupid, so blind.
only two days ago I discovered that page...
that last page you wrote.

"some words are left better unsaid"

I can feel the warmth
and I realized that time passed quickly only when you are here.
The chit chat sessions we have about the theories of Sasuke..
the games we played together at arcades and psp, and that very one time we quarreled,
and most importantly your support..
and now I realize that I took everything for granted.

Your patience will tire you out. :)
I think you deserve better, really!

If there is fate and affinity,
we will meet again and maybe by that time,
I will believe.

But I feel that I won't believe FOREVER. :O
There's no point to continue ...

Thank you so very much.
For running the entire Singapore
just for that thing I wanted which broke, UGH.
Thank you...

strangely as I type this, there are little tears welled up in my eyes..
your pain? or 心动？i also don't know.
the elephant... the sheep.. the turtle... the lamb..
time will show.. our destiny.

Just be what we are now OKAY?
And after o's we will go crazy and mad together wahahaha.
Look at the bright side!
Remember December?
I warned you before....
haha.

T.T

2008-06-24T07:28:00.000-07:00

Tuesday sucks after all ):

2008-06-24T02:18:00.000-07:00

Early in the morning, I actually KNOCKED into him. and gave a little scream!
How many times have I been so silly and made a fool of myself huh?

I remember the first time it was during CNY decoration thingy..
and then I was actually dancing funny Indian Dance in front of yi kai and yvonne,
then he came out and saw everything argh.=.="

The second time I was singing in a broken tone...
and he heard, good gracious!

The third time was yesterday when I argh, got too high~
and when I get too high, i get too crazy, then he walked past.

And today I knocked him, SIAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN.

well, okay nevermind.

HAHA, Mr Chua said 我是很爱你的! Only yesterday I called him a hottie ;D.

got fate no fate got affinity got no affinity
got destiny no destiny
won't die trying :D
will die, not knowing.

Good gracious.

2008-06-23T07:58:00.001-07:00

Posted on 24 Jun, 2008 10:34

Injured after falling into broken drain cover

After suffering bad fall stepping onto a defective drain cover, a STOMPer expresses disappointment over the standard of infrastructure maintenance and feels that more has to be done for the safety of other carpark users.

According to Shermaine, the incident happened when she was walking with a friend from Yishun Stadium to a carpark at Blk 816 Yishun St 81 on June 15 afternoon.

She said in her email:

"While walking, I happened to step on a drain at the carpark when the drain cover suddenly toppled & my right leg went straight into the drain.

"I could feel my leg being hardly scratched against the concrete while I tried to maintain my balance to prevent myself from falling into the drain.

"It was a really bad fall. The whole of my right ankle was badly bruised.

"Although I was in intense pain but I vaguely remembered my friend checking the drain cover and we discovered it was actually defective.

"The drain cover was not supposed to totally detach from the ground. One side should be secured.

"My friend & I went back to the carpark a few days later.

"Yes, it was confirmed that the side where the drain cover supposedly be secured to the ground was buried in the mud and the metals seemed to be rusty and corroded. The metal rod which was to secure the drain cover was not there too.

"It is the responsibility of the Town Council to conduct regular checks on the infrastructures and facilities of the area and make sure they are in normal condition.

"It is really unfair to me to suffer such pain due to their negligence.

"However, what I am more concerned is the residents & people using that carpark.

"If a child or an elderly were to step on any defective drain cover, the consequences will be really bad.

"Moreover, we, as residents, pay maintenance fees to the Town Council and the minimal we expect will be the safety of ourselves & our loved ones.

"Singapore is full of such drains and it is unavoidable we have to step on them sometimes. But if the maintenance is in such standard, we will be walking in fear all the time then."

STOMP is contacting the Ang Mo Kio-Yio Chu Kang Town Council for comment.

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woohoo.

2008-06-23T07:49:00.000-07:00

God is great.
Tomorrow will NOT suck.
Because you are here you are here you are here you are here you are here you are here you are here you are here you are here you are here you are here you are here to study with me. :D
LETS STUDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:D
Wednesday will suck.
Tuition with -.- and =.='
and I am the T_T.

LIZARD, YOU'RE MY MOTIVATION!
KAKAKAKAKAKA.
Aspiring teacher, lecturer, journalist, anchorwoman, polyglot, food engineer.

<3 whees.

Hello School.

2008-06-23T07:36:00.000-07:00

:D
yayie yayie yayie.

Thanks for the prezzies from overseas, Yi Kai and Zi Peng.
Yi Kai gave a magnet ( I chose mushroom because it reminded me of Jin Xuan! )
and some foooooooood. Big Thanks!!! :D
Zi Peng's mother gave a pink umbrella with a rose embroidered on it..
;D quite nice. thank you zipeng's mother for taking such a big risk just to buy a gift..

Mickey MICKEY MOUSE Mickey rocks, period.

Today first day of school,
first thing get bullied by Joyce.
second thing get bullied by Yi Kai.
third thing get bullied by Ka Shun.
fourth thing get bullied by Sara.
Hais, imagine an innocent.. helpless girl...
on the first day of school.. sobs.

Was supposed to meet Lizard at 6pm,
my handphone went out of batt,
tried calling Eliz but ended up calling some wrong Indian number.
... oh, my... I shall never use that bluetooth name ever again.
some people will understand what I mean!
I shall put "shuai ge" instead.
Then next time I end up calling "shuai ge ge" HAHAS.

until now, I still haven't see your smile? :)
I know your eyes swept past here but oh please please,
do be happy! :D

给我一点自由，好吗？
whats the point ? there's no connection.

cheer up!

2008-06-20T09:28:00.000-07:00

:D
cheer up cheer up gokillmyself!

Here's an English version of lemon tree xuannie ;D

I wonder how I wonder why yesterday you told me about the blue blue sky
And all that I can see is the arrival of Little Dragon Buns!

So I found a whole list that will hopefully will help you DUDE!
CLICK HERE.

sorry sorry sorry sorry. sorry.. really.

YAY!

2008-06-20T02:06:00.000-07:00

ERM, this is a song from my brother's blog.
(: Please do not get the wrong idea...!

Well you done done me and you bet I FELT IT :D
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
and now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

Yay :D Thank you once more

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours~

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
We're just one big family
And It's our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Scooch closer dear
and i will nibble your ear

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
My breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed

my trademark! :D
I guess what i be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
this is our fate, I'm yours

Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find the sky is yours
Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
A lá one big family
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love love love

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Yi Kai dwarling has gone overseas already *sighs*.

Time will pass so quickly :) Zipeng will be back today!

wahahahas. I want PSP. O_O well, after o's!

So I decided to 'test' myself just now, XXX was online and I said HEY ;D.
Then I realized its not the same anymore,
这感觉已经不对
(: since its like that, then its like that. since its wanted to be like that,
since it is meant to be like that,
then its like that then.
Feeling all normal, back back back to myself!
Maybe its the TEENAGE magazine,
Or that support..
Or that songs..
Or maybe its' you ;D
Or maybe its just me~
couldn't you believe that everything I said and did
wasn't just deceiving?

Good gracious! I was singing to myself just now and then Mela korkor was talking to Ke Wei on the phone,
Ke Wei: Wah, who is that singing? I have to call the hospital already
Shermaine: Haha, you want to help me get more audience to hear an angel singing right? :D
Ke Wei: Wah, you and your brother same level of bhb-ness! Hahas

arrrrghhhh I'm going to become a looney-kia!
Suddenly, Elizabeth declared me a powerpuff girl ;(.
Well, I am going to church with Mojo JOJO tomorrow!
And then Li Zhi said 'same time same place' for the study group tomorrow,
I hope I can make it for both, and hopefully my daddy will allow.

YAY! School is reopening!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*HIGH FIVE* Jin Xuan :D I am as crazy as you.

BLEAH ! :D

2008-06-19T07:51:00.000-07:00

And someone complained that there was irony on my
earlier post about the "Hot" song :(

Well I really mean it! So no sarcasm, really (:
*grins*

So another someone wants me to do this :D

7 random facts about me.
1. I loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee my family extremely much.
2. I forget some things damn easily and quickly, which is not really a good thing ;X
3. I loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee my friends very much. :D
4. I dislike chocolate but I like vanilla.
5. I love nature : D
6. I think "A hungry man is an angry man" fits me.
7. I am usually 100% cheerful and happy,
but when things go the wrong way, I display 75% happiness, 25% sadness!

7 things that scare me.
1. ALARM CLOCK RINGING!
2. Bugs Insects~
3. Losing my family etc. (choy!) T_T
4. Total Darkness
5. Doing the same thing everyday.
6. THE PRESENCE OF KANG MING.
7. You know, that same old thing that keeps happening.. -.-
Yes Km I still no confidence !

7 favourite friends. {Random order}
1. Joyce Tan Joyce Ng
2. YI KAI YI YANG YI CHEN
3. YVONNE
4. Xiu Yi Wen Lin
5. jin Xuan
6. Kang Ming Zi Peng
7. Elizabethhhh

7 things I like most.
1. BEING ME :D
2. Giving off the Aura of HAPPINESS
3. Waking Up!
4. I prefer peeing to pooping because its faster, HAHA!
5. GOING TO SCHOOL. WHEEEEEEEEEE!
6. Singing LALALA~~!
7. SURPRISES! :D

7 people to do this.
1. YIKAI!
2. JOYCE!
3. Kang Ming!
4. Norvin!
5. ANYONE.
6. ANYONE.
7. ANYONE.

The entire world.

2008-06-19T06:06:00.000-07:00

It's Thursday already, so damn fast.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY Miss Terrapin. (:
Hope you can get to see _________ more often, hehs.

and I'm back :D. went to malaaaaaaaaysia yesterday.

_________ : Hi 小姐，可以给我你的电话号码吗？
Me: 不好意思。。我不是这里人.
______________: 你是香港人？

almost died laughing!

Me: 没有啦！新加坡人！
___________: 哦。。那你有friendster 吗？
Me: 什么是 friendster?
HAHAHAHHA!!!
LOL. And then...
I GOT A FREE PRETZEL.... YAY!

And it's the shape of a heart! :)
Thank You Wheee :D

Then we went to eat stone grill, which is 4 times cheaper there compared to Singapore..

and Marrybrown too. Then we watched kungfu panda. :D

*sniffs* I put on zero point five kilograms ! YAY~!
More strength for me to whack people, since Yi Yang says my punching does not hurt wherelse Yi Kai one hurts a lot. *sighs*

我很累。
虽然知道该怎么做，但倔强的我却一直不放手。
可能就是因为在那最后一分钟，
自己觉得他怕未来会在此伤害到我，
所以自己便舍不得放下。
原来，我的思想只是一个人的。
虽然我愿意，和他继续，可是这只是一种空缺。
这样依依不舍，这样期待，这样希望。。
使我更快失去自己。
就当做这是给他最后的牵就。。
闭自己忘掉他。
这次，我愿意放弃。

You're so ridiculous, I can barely stop (laughing)
I can hardly breathe, you make me wanna scream[AHHH!!!!],
~~You're so fabulous~~(LOL), You're so GOOD to me :D.
~You make me so HOT~

BON VOYAGE DWARLINGGGGG!

"
我的一颗心
早已决定为你痴迷
要勇敢面对
把曾受伤的心慢慢放出来
用我的真心真意分担你悲哀
拥有了爱心就分不开
"

You know what? *grins*
I.Am.Listening.To.You.Right.Now.
Ah Bu, neh neh poo poo : D.

all out of love

2008-06-17T11:25:00.000-07:00

oh my! what am i doing?
spare 5 minutes to listen to this -.-

Im lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart

I wish I could carry your smile in my heart
For times when my life seems so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesnt really know, doesnt really know

Im all out of love, Im so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
Im all out of love, what am I without you
I cant be too late to say I was so wrong

I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from these long, lonely nights
Im reaching for you, are you feeling it too?
Does the feeling seem oh, so right?
[she sings nice right?!]

And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I cant hold on?
Theres no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or Ill be gone, Ill be gone

Ooh, what are you thinking of x3

TOMORROW IS WEDNESDAY!!!!
THE DANGEROUS DAY I'VE BEEN WAITING IMPATIENTLY FOR.
18 June :D
GOODBYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE EVERYONE!
WAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!
Yi Yang I Hope I can See The Same Thing That You Do
And Then I Will Make Sure I Am In It Too.
HOPEFULLY. :D

*GRINS LIKE CRAAAAAAAAAAAAZZY*

sunshine waterfall; you get to see rainbow in water bottles, fish tanks and practically anywhere if you have the skill (or the presence of The Late Miss Shermaine Lau)! ._.""
this is so darn shiok . fight fight fight~~~~
F I G H T .

haix.

2008-06-17T09:15:00.000-07:00

:( hais!
yah. everything in my blog is fake right, kang ming ):

Oh, I'm so happy man. woosh ! -.-

today? it was okay. we went to burger king earlier on for some last minute touch-up.
The gigantic comics connection has opened! Sasuke was placed over there,
I am so mesmerized by his cool and calm demeanor.

I was told by wenlin in burger king...
that "_____________"
擦肩而过？
hais...

so.. we headed to yvonne's house and surprised her.
she was very surprised, yay :)

There was a lot of jokes to keep me happy. Yvonne cut wenlin's hair for her,
and Yi Kai got stuck in Yvonne's toilet.
She called me on the handphone and I was supposed to be the heroine and saved her!!
But I couldn't break down the door and muscular Yvonne took over the job, though she didn't break down the door, haha.

Xiuyi, Joyce and I went to play pool.

Hais.

oooh reflection. anyway, xiu yi actually changed her name to "Mrs Pig" and Joyce named herself "Smart Girl"
Oh what liars, haha.

Time passed so fast, it was 8.50pm.
Time always pass very fast with Shermaine AROUND, haha.
Note: AROUND, not Shermaine ( a round). I'm not Round!!! Grrrrrrrr stupid joyce tan.

ok.
We went to northpoint at night to eat. Saw Yi Yang there.
haha..

oh.
thanks for the donutssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.
donuts are LOVED :D.

a very famous donut company from Raffles City.
I think besides Crispy Creme, this is second rated best!
So sad... Singapore don't have Crispy Creme donut.

From what I heard, do you know that all the air steward and stewardess
'steal' all the Crispy Creme donuts and tell the passengers that there are NO DONUTS left?!
They take all the boxes home.
Darn nice. DAMN nice. I MISS IT SO BADLY!!!

And you remind me of the taste.

I chose the tIra-MISS-YOU donut :).

5 seconds later...
"wth" was my first reaction.
"omg" was my second reaction.
I thought it was CREAM inside(yucks).
the chocolate outside taste DAMN good (and I actually don't like choc.?!)
Seeing that there is cream inside, i wanted to stop eating...

BUT NO, it is actually WARM MILK!
Warm MILK in donut!
The taste is irresistible, it BLENDED well! Ah, I loveeeeeeeeeeeeee it.

why do you still care? or do you really not care anymore?
is it so difficult to...
trust US, and believe in ourselves that we CAN pull it through?
to put everything aside and move on together~
or is it easier and better to put everything down and walk on alone?
I think I still hope, because it ended like a loose thread hanging over emptiness...
一天又一天就这样过去，
ｗａｎｇ　ｌｅ　ｗｏ　ｓｈｉ　ｓｈｕｉ．
他，　试着把我心治好．
ｍｅｉ　ｙｏｎｇ　ｄｅ．

argh. why are you still reading this...
why are you still here...
caring is not equal to guilt..
caring is... _ _ _ _.

Tomorrow I am going to a dangerous place :)
YAAAAAAAY.

OH. Joyce told me a very funny joke.
WHICH SHAMPOO IS THE MOST RICHEST? :D

.
.
.
LUX!
Because LUX- SUPER RICH!! :D

siaaaaaaaaaaan. i can't get rid of it.
time heals -.-.

time is a great teacher,
but unfortunately,
it KILLS all its pupils - Hector Berlioz (Ka Shun)
haha. KILL.

work

2008-06-17T08:47:00.001-07:00

Went to work at PF's seminar yesterday.

It was kind of relaxing... one of the best jobs I ever had.

Yep! A present for Deyi (: That's Ong Wen Lin.. I think she became crazy after knowing me.

Ok I did that ZILLION YEARS ago(above). Yes, I was terminally ill since 4 years ago. The doctor diagnosed me with "SIAO SIAO SIAO-itis". I'm okay now, but it is passed to ong wen lin! *sighs*

Well, Wan Qi took a very cool photo of...

Her photoshot skill rocks! Gamaliel looks ultra robotic.. HAHA!
We chatted quite a lot while working, and I almost killed him.
Gamaliel: Wah... *walks to the wall and bang his head*
Shermaine: What I dooooooooooooooo?!
Gamaliel: I don't know whether to laugh or cry you know!
Shermaine: HAHAHAHAHA! Do both at the same time.
Gamaliel: How can I do both at the same time?! Its like one moment I want to laugh,
but I can't laugh and you make me want to cry. It feels horrible.

And then we all ended up laughing like mad ;D

And I helped Deyi to surprise wenlin :D. See, I'm world's best human number ONE right Deyi?
She was totally surprised/shocked, yayie.

Lovey dovey :D. NICE to make people smileeeeee.

The rest are some of the photos we took... those people are potential photographers,
they should consider working freelance. *grins*

Toa cah soh. I am that short?! Darn.

Yes my dear. You are that short.

Ahh. How can I grow taller if you keep hitting me? :D

SPLAAAAAAAAAAAAAT.

The photo I took! (its not photoshop-ed okay?!)
when you walk away I count the steps that you take.
can't you see how much I need you right now?
when you're gone, the pieces of my heart are missing too.

Cafe Cartel

2008-06-17T08:18:00.000-07:00

Not long ago, we went to Cafe Cartel to celebrate the coming of Yvonne's birthday :)

Quite crazy because Yi Kai and Yvonne lost the game and had to eat bread topped with tobasco chilli, olive oil and butter.
HAHA. Nobody knew I had to eat that too, *GRINS*
Thats because I lost to Ka Shun in some game, can't remember what.
But Ka Shun had to eat that too, because she lost to me in DUMP(Chess!)
Probably I'm a "C" personality, because I am going to remember this for the next twenty years.
just kidding.

FATHER DAY

2008-06-15T07:10:00.000-07:00

*HA! i didn't know i look so dumb when i think to myself*
yayies. today is ... :D

*grins* Proudly presenting my papa with er... a hand-made card ;D!
Yes yes, for sixteen years my art hasn't change a BIT..
but it doesn't matter, childish / childlike drawing proves that I'm young! HAHA!
and papa's smile always make him look twenty years younger, HAHA.

so my family headed down to different tastes and eat dinner,
a whooping bill of $67.
many things happened, there were some errors in the billing ugh.
the food was darn good, i've taken loads of pictureeees of them but don't want to post it here,
since they are soooooo mouthwatering and i'm hungry again! :(

many things happened in just two days :D
i can't post everything down here, too sleepy/tired though i wanna remember the events of these happy happy time with dwaaarling ! :D
and those torturing times with saywei and kang ming, hahaha.

but YAAAAAAY.
i'm going to get a hefty treat from gkm soon, xiaolongbaos wooolala~

and and
oh dunggggg its 12:02 am.
well, HAPPY BELATED FATHER'S DAY!!!!

sometimes i don't know how i feel!
maybe i do, but compression and suppressing them made me confuse.
):

Friday the 13th

2008-06-13T08:18:00.000-07:00

Just read Yvonne's 'wordpress' and realized,
today is FRIDAY THE THIRTEENTH!

and we have a new-comer in school today :D

LAM KA SHUN ! I told myself I am going to blog about this.. this wonderful experience with them!

And so, we went to the nearest coffeeshop to eat chicken rice(YAY!) for recess.
An Indian Guy went over to talk to Ka Shun.. bragging that he build buildings,
and saying that Chung Cheng High was supposed to be in Bishan(LOL!)
Imagine: Chung Cheng High Bishan. [CCHB] sounds like a very bad vulgarity.

That guy sort of left an open-ended question about what he worked as,
so Yi Kai said something like
"maybe he is an architect"
Yi Yang went like
"construction worker".
EVIL.
But actually, he was an engineer.

Then he came back again and told us he can do magic,
that he can make a TWENTY-CENT coin go through the table.

Well, we all ran away :D WHEES!

See, MAD CRAZY LUNATIC people attract Insane People.
This proves Ka Shun belongs to that type of people, since we did not meet crazy people for the past few days...
But all three of them claims that I am the one who is MAD CRAZY LUNATIC! *sighs*
BWAHAHAHAHA I am as sane as anyone as can be.

Then we walked all the way to Chong Pang
(Yes, we walked from school to Yishun for three consecutive days; MARATHON indeed)
to eat.. ugh.
On the way,
*sees Rainbow Center*
Ka Shun, YY, Yi Kai: Shermaine!! You study in there right?!!

And I became someone with learning disability.

*sees a ChildCare Center*
Ka Shun, YY, Yi Kai: Shermaine!! Why aren't you in there?

And I become a kindergarten kid?!

Why am I being recognized for "talents" that are not up to my standard?!
PEOPLE!! I hope you see a tree,
and proclaim
"Shermaine!! Why are you as tall as the tree???"

Or look up at the sun and shout
"SHERMAINE!!! WHY ARE YOU AS HOT AS THE SUN?! "

HAHAHAHA!

So freaking eerie.
Its like someone is watching my every move
and just when I thought I did not have a heart anymore
I felt you pump my <3.
Hm, I suppose RJ guys are hotter than CATHOLIC High ones lah :D
How are we supposed to do EVERYTHING in one day?!

2008-06-12T04:27:00.000-07:00

ANOTHER QUIZ ;D.

WHAT IS YOUR NAME?
-SHERMAINE LAU BOON KUAN.

DO YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND?
- NO~ I HAVE MANY WIVES *GRIN*

WHAT CAN YOU HEAR NOW?
- SOUNDS!

WHAT ARE YOU WEARING?
- Tee and shorts. (and the inside, LOL)

LAST PERSON TO COMMENT YOU?
- He shouted "美女“! HAHA!

DO YOU SING?
- Mari Kita :D

WHO DID YOU LAST CALL?
- ~~Wen Lin~~ kang ming.

WHO LAST TEXTED YOU?
- Nameless person (dont want tell me who)

WHAT JEWELRY DO YOU WEAR DAILY?
- Earring counted?

WOULD YOU DIE FOR SOMEONE?
- FAMILY. But depends on what is happening at that time, would I be HIRO and save the world? :D

LATEST THING YOU'VE RECENTLY LEARNED?
- There are people who are unfaithful and cruel and displays utmost disloyalty.

ARE YOU COLD NOW?
- YES :(. have been feeling cold lately.

IS ANYTHING BOTHERING YOU RIGHT NOW?
- Jin Xuan, who keeps on sprouting nonsense about Shermaine having a stupido for a husband! HAHA!

WHAT DID YOU EAT FOR BREAKFAST?
- WAN TON HOR FUN =D

LUNCH?
- LONG JOHN SILVERS ;D

Dinner?
- HOT DOG BREAD!

CAN YOU SWIM?
- A little bit.

UNITED STATES OR CANADA?
- SINGAPORE!

JEANS OR SWEATPANTS?
- Jeans!

WHAT SHOULD YOU BE DOING?
- Nothing actually.

DO YOU OWN BIG SUNGLASSES?
- YAAAH :D

HAVE YOU EVER CRIED SO HARD YOU MADE YOURSELF SICK?
- LOL, ONLY LAUGHED TOO HARD AND I FELL SICK!

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER?
- 10 10 10 ten ten ten 10 10 10 28 28 28 .

FAVORITE TV SHOW
- POWERPUFF GIRLS LOONEY TUNES ANYTHING ;D

DO YOU DANCE?
- YES I DO!

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON?
- Where it doesn't rain, but it doesn't burn either.
NO SNOW.

WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO?
- NEXT WEDNESDAAAAAAY!!!!!! WAHAHAHHA!

EVER GOTTEN LOST IN THE DARK?
- NO! I WOULD FAINT RIGHT AWAY.

WHO IS YOUR LOVE?
- FAMILY BESTIES N FRIENDS(EXCLUDING KM)
AND TEH! ;D

there's nothing to forgive when i don't blame you.
there's nothing to forget when i want to remember you.
there's nothing to heal, when the wound is fatal.
J, I See You.